woo; crisis of faith
First crisis of faith encountered. Worried that I came too close to violating fundamental beliefs late yesterday. Upset. Scared. Can't bring myself to sleep. This close to pitching everything, just to be safe. Know that's not a rational response. Going to try to sleep in the observatory instead.
woo; crisis of faith
@MagentaForge I wish I could offer helpful words, but all I've got is... your mind/spirit is resilient, and so is the fabric of reality. things will stretch a very (absurdly) far way before they'll truly break.
that said... it *can* break, under certain circumstances; and... there really isn't a nice/good way to say it, but what you've signed up for is a program of study that includes "breaking one's own reality" on the syllabus. it's not a flaw, it's a feature. :]
woo; crisis of faith
@MagentaForge *offers of hugs and slow gentle petting* I hope the observatory helped. Take your time and remember that you're not alone. Others are here to talk when you are ready.
woo; crisis of faith
@MagentaForge You're always allowed to put your paws on the guardrails. We can always unwind back to first principles and reconstruct our route.
woo; crisis of faith
@MagentaForge
A little calmer now. Still awake. More foundational work needs to be done. Boundaries need to be set.