Woo; On internal work
I tear down, I rebuild, I tear down, I rebuild again.
I've avoided talking about some of the internal work I've been doing just because it's seen so much flux, and also because I know tulpamantic / character-based internal work tends to be irritating to read from the outside.
"Who is this person and why should I care," etc, and a sense of "I hope this person talking about other selves is approaching this from a healthy angle, and not a devil-made-me-do-it one."
Woo; On internal work
@MagentaForge
There are some people I know of who have that quality of "devil made me do it", or to be more specific, talking about identity as fluid but exhibiting no self-awareness of what's easy to accept. Or no self because they change so much and it's a struggle to even know who's talking at any point.
You are not that. :-)
You've got a lot of consideration of others, and a lot of self-awareness/analysis. That's a very good solid ground to start from.
Woo; On internal work
@emanate
Aww, Em! That's really sweet, and just what I needed to hear.
Thank you 💙💜💙
Woo; On internal work
That said, after the scare I had recently, it became a marker of a new period of deconstruction and re-examination.
Part of this involved purging everything and going back to first principles. Reassert the handrails.
After a few hours, one aspect of my internal work did come back. I haven't talked about my character 'Selena' yet, but suffice to say, she came swimming back. I'm very glad.
We'll rebuild, with a better eye on underlying values.
All is well 💙