Introduction time again? The months fly by.
I'm Moment. Slightly silly rabbit. Taking a Jackalope certification course online, hope my antlers will be in the mail soon. I used to draw, hand's frotzed now. Used to chat, had that impulse surgically cut off. Spend my days operating an industrial laser and waterjet, my nights staring into screens and sleeping. Very rarely but occasionally Make Interesting Things. Exhausted often.
Interests:
#making
#cryptids
#doctorwho
#syntheticlife
#3dprinting
financial (-)
And bless your little hearts, medical staffing agency. "We're just calling to see if there's something wrong with your credit card, or if there's another credit system you'd prefer to switch to, as something appears to have disrupted your payments?" No, dear sweet summer child, we can't afford to pay for the care that comes to bathe the Mother of the Mate once extra (twice a week). We juggle our payments and occasionally we drop the ball. Thank you for pretending otherwise. 9.9
work (-)
I find I am spending more time trying to overcome unsurmountable obstacles to completing work than actually completing work. Like a suborbital doom beam that cannot hold beam width from one project to the next consistently - or even through a single cutting project. This is bleeding the joy out of work: Sisyphus I am not.
Catching myself entering early burnout vectors. Tying to change my direction, but it's hard work, on top of this unending effort to make things work at work. >.<
Note to self: the initial period of syncronization fail with VLC opening Macromedia livestreams is a cluster of 2us network jitter hits, about 50 in rapid succession, right after it goes through trying every codec it has ever heard of against the stream. This is well within acceptable network congestion limits individually: together, perhaps not. Why is it clustering? What's not getting frobbed in a timely fashion while it skims its codec library?
Dig deeper into codec loading hierarchy.
Should share something positive to balance things. Aha! Managed to get a video stream running flawlessly to the video unit in the living area last night, so I and TheMate could *both* wind down and watch a really horrible movie.
I may need to revise my concept of 'fun', but it was good to see the chat full of people in similar pain watching that thing. Felt like home. n.n
Biologicals. (-)
So, motion of fingers at extremes of flexion of right wrist has been worsening - hard to flex fingers when wrist flexed, hard to extend fingers when wrist extended. Painful, too.
But what's *really* painful (briefly) is inadvertently putting too much pressure on extended fingers while getting up - and tearing a cyst's adhesions from its surrounding fascia.
Now, one of the lumps *moves* when I flex metacarpals three and four. Still adhering to the tendons, little bastard. >.<
Toots to the contrary, today wasn't an early breakfast day. Today was a stagger-out-of-bed-late-and-discover-the-driver-side-tire-is-flatter-than-the-Prairies day. A refill and astonishingly cheap garage visit later, nail in tire is out, hole repaired, and breakfast - well, lunch - was had.
Once I'd have tried to do that myself. Today isn't a good hand day.
Finishing up the rewire: crimping a few Cat5e cables, and we'll have a hardline to the raspberry at the TV. Then, software.
Right. Right. I have 35 hours to rewire the house from demarkation to the primary viewing site so there are no bottlenecks on a gigabit lan off cable 'net, install the latest Raspian on a known good Pi3 board, configure VLC for maximum logging, and figure out the buffering issue plaguing Adobe's antique Macromedia Director codec making it require 'hammering' "Play" 14 times in 10 seconds (BUT GHOD NO MORE THAN THAT YOU MANIAC) to start network stream playback.
...
am I *that* desperate?
adventures in home surgery (more cyst stuff)
Now I just need to book an appointment work will let me *leave* for... and then convince my doctor to refer me to a surgeon who's willing to listen to some failled engineering student who's way too keen on exploratory tissuesampling to solve his problems to waste time and funds on an MRI that'll probably *also* be inconclusive, or just put me under and open the damn thing up and take a video . 9.9
I'll need a good elevator pitch.
adventures in home surgery (more cyst stuff)
It seems to be running under the dorsal vein of the hand, too. Usually even the big cysts wind up one side or the other, and rarely reach too far up. But this one's had a while to grow asymptomatic, I suspect.
It *might* be related to the trigger finger affecting my middle digit on that hand, and the wrist movement pain and restristion of flexor movement. It all *fits*... even the inconclusive ultrasound.
adventures in home surgery (more cyst stuff)
Usually such a cyst would grow in all directions, not primarily in the horizonal plane: this has delayed diagnosis. I think I know why, though. I'm on enough blood pressure meds to make a horse woozy, have been for years - and that includes diuretics. So it's been growing in pulses, quite literally, under the constant low pressure of the dermis, spreading like pancake batter.
Entangling with my finger flexors.
Oh, removal is going to be *fun*.
adventures in home surgery (more cyst stuff)
A bit more fluid aspiration mapping the back of my right hand/wrist, and watching surgery on ganglionic cysts on youtube, has lead me to two conclusions.
One: I can be harmlessly drained of a good 20-30 ml of synovial fluid every so often from the reservoirs that cover the space of a business card across the back of my lower right hand, which modestly reduces pain.
Two: I need a hand surgeon consult. There is *no* way I can manage this thing myself.
Hey, @PhoenixTril ? I, ah. Heh. It's funny, really. Y'know how I mentioned how we've never had a basement flood in the house? Heh heh.
No, no, it's not that. Not that bad.
You know how there's a vent in the roof over the kitchen, but there's no vent *at* the kitchen sink waste pipe, and I figured past owners moved the sink but were too lazy to move the vent?
They *weren't* too lazy to cut the vent/waste pipe off in the basement ceiling.
Ha! I did not see that one coming. >.<
cw: self-repair (minor)
Ganglionic cysts are fluid-filled sacs that develop at wrist and finger joints. They're usually painless themselves, unless they press against a nerve, but they can impede motion of the joint. The permanent solution is surgical removal, but fluid can be drained for diagnostics.
My doctor is in no hurry to deal with the mess that is the swamp behind my right wrist.
She should never have put me on insulin if she didn't want me to normalize stabbing needles into my flesh.
I know I said this already, but it was lost to the great refreshening yesterday so here we are again.
If you take one bit of wisdom from me let it be this: document everything. ESPECIALLY if you get the "huh, that's weird" feeling from a situation or interaction. And don't be afraid to ask for confirmation in writing (or ask more than once), it will save your ass one day.
Protect yourself.
Middle-aged scatterbrain working in 'the healthcare field'. Teaching a computer to sculpt in my spare time. Torontoish. Pronouns: he/hare