Chronic pain
So, I've had an ulcer and probably colitis for around two years now. Today is a bad day and I'm hurting so bad I can't really do my job.
The emotional trauma from this sickness has forced me to focus and develop myself far beyond what I would have without, but it's left me taking refuge in a person who isn't the one who's operated the meatsuit for more than a decade.
And whenever the pain comes back, I start to slip into Her headspace. It's scary.