The more I do work that tends the land, the more connected I feel to the goddess.
This conflicts somewhat with what happens to my Body.
I get filled with cravings, urges, my muscles bulge and I Need to be out there, up to my elbows in dirt.
So spiritually, my reward for service is to be denied.
@Motodrachen There's a piece missing for me to parse this. What's being denied?