@foxwitch@queer.af Hah. Funny part of my journey... I'm actually weirdly glad I waited, I got that Confirmation in my teen years and Ran from it, tried to be a Man and kinda Failed.
So I ran off to the gender hinterlands with my wife in '06, only to find our homestead rapidly Gentrified a decade later.
I was happy with it Not Being a Big Deal. Now it's a big deal.
So it's a pincer: I Do want this but not for the reason most people have done it?
For me, it's a Sacrament of the Goddess.