Tohri: I figured it out. o_o I hate having to be a Cishet idea of Masculine, but I'm more than okay with being the trans/queer idea of a Guy.

Even though we don't have a great word for what I am. It's kinda like being okay with being the Designated Driver because you don't even like alcohol much anymore.

I can do the Masc thing for someone if that's what they want or they're comfortable with, but it's uh... Not gonna be the Cishet idea of what a Man is.

I will jump right in and change a tire for a bunch of little old ladies with my hair down and a skirt on.
Or haul a refrigerator up a flight a stairs, fix your bathroom plumbing, change an alternator on your car and give you a Backrub.

And without the T running thru my system, I don't feel like I'm putting on a 'Nice Guy' mask. Like, I was getting a weird kinda complex dysphoria.