@skolli *Mixes up a strawberry chocolate espresso vape juice* I'm sorry, I can't hear you, I'm in the Future.
@skolli Obviously you need to lose the 50% skunk.
Gender and sexuality
Looked at a certain way, I make perfect sense. Just not according to any standard social model.
I'm polyamorous, pansexual, and I'm an androgynous in-between, like a Bishounen take on a Bara pirate character.
Most of the folks I like to play with sexually are Trans, or in-between or otherwise have some peanut-butter in their chocolate.
It's just ironic that by the time I'd achieved the body, the look and the status I'd wanted in my teens that I'd be wanting something Else but not sure What.
On top of this, all my friends like me just the way I am, and I don't know why that feels weird. When Kerithe is the dominant personality, she knows who she is, what she wants, and the body feels a lot more Normal for her. It's like gender dysphoria just doesn't Apply to her or something.
@MapleDeer Looking good!
@plausocks Hey now, the Koch brothers paid a lotta money for that tax cut. </Scarcasm>
re: Gender stuff
@clipclopboom@snouts.online I've just been feeling less of an engineer lately I guess. Last couple of jobs just kinda beat the crap outta my enthusiasm for the whole thing.
And... Yeah, from an autistic point of view it just looks like a big grab bag of unrelated concepts and artifacts. Like some kinda Cargo Cult. Besides, where I'm from, the Women I had as role models were... well, Hippies.
And that misandry fucked me up, probably caused the split between Tohri and Keri in the first place. Just kinda got Confirmed in the real world, where old white men Are what's wrong with everything.
@MapleDeer Take some of that stress, meditate on it, ball it up, and put it in an Object, then put that object on a shelf in easy view.
And for the next week, remind yourself that all your stress is in The Thing, not you.
re: Gender stuff
@clipclopboom@snouts.online True, And you haven't been Bad in that regard. ... Especially considering the Minefield you're living in.
On my end it's just... Well, being a Woman was always more about making your own bread, knowing the small secrets of the natural world, putting others needs before your own, and understanding how to really Care for people than the Clothes, or the Body, or the place in modern american society.
Hell, I failed at the clothes, body and place in society as a Guy. Then Kerithe came along, showed me that she was all that and a bag of chips when it came to being a woman, then reminded me that if she was living here and could do all the Girl Magic, I should stop beating myself up over being a Man, or at least tone it back by Half.
Lots of misandry in my family past.
Gender stuff
Sometimes I feel like an impostor here because as much as I get physical dysphoria, mostly I just don't want to get flak in the real world for dressing and behaving in the ways that feel normal or natural to me.
I got sick of performative gender in my 20s trying to be accepted as Male. All the parts of being a Man and being a Woman that I feel are really Important... Well, I'm already there.
I just hate having to Insist I'm one way or another, when I can be Either way if you just ask nicely. :\
@plausocks I'm in the same spot. :/
Southern Mass's local machine healer and part time witchdoctor.
Tiny motorcycles, magic potions, machine tools, progressive rock, trance states, and hand sharpened drill bits. Oh, and I read Tarot. Probably 18+ just to be sure.
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