Genderweird
So, Physically HRT is hyper effective even in low doses. My boobs are growing, I'm getting Curves, my skin is softening, my Smell is different, my Butt has changed shape, and my face is looking different after intermittent DIY treatment.
Emotionally and on the 'Gender Identity' front? This whole thing isn't taking us the direction it took all our other friends, we seem to be on an express train to Enbytown.
here's the tea on being 'unlovable'
everything you believe about your innate desirability and worthiness of love is a function of what you believe about yourself, and much as I respect you and value your insight, *some of the things you believe about yourself aren't true*
when you look in the mirror, you see things that remind you of yourself. the shape of your elbow, the shape of your chin, the space between your eyes, the mark on your forehead. these are just the things that make you recognize yourself. other people also recognize you by many of those things, and probably other things that you don't notice or see very much of
so when you look in the mirror and see a litany of flaws or ugliness, that isn't because those things "are flaws" or "are ugly": that is because you believe you are flawed and ugly, because that's what you've been taught to believe, and *those are the things you recognize yourself by.* anything about yrself that sticks out in your mind becomes an imperfection
@fluxom_alt I have been alerted of your requests for fluff so I'd like to talk about Pemka. My darling little idiot bird is currently shedding her winter fluff! Down to just one baby feather left in her tail.
She alternates between begging for scritchies and refusing touch because of those bloodfeathers are itchy but also very tender.
The dork has starting taking naps on my foot while I'm at my desk, which is cute but also sucks when I have to go to the bathroom and she gets upset at me.
I'm starting to think that 90% of the trauma my friends suffer from comes down to "I was an autistic kid" in a world that wanted them to be ANYTHING but what they are.
When you account for autism, and understand that it makes you end up a Non-standard human being, it's almost a Normal thing.
Instead, we were all Tormented, just so we "Would Grow Up Normal"
I've always hated this Expectation of Normality. It always felt like a Conspiracy.
Southern Mass's local machine healer and part time witchdoctor.
Tiny motorcycles, magic potions, machine tools, progressive rock, trance states, and hand sharpened drill bits. Oh, and I read Tarot. Probably 18+ just to be sure.
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