Y'know, I thought that Spiro had just killed my libido, but it turns out that I wasn't...responding to smut and my own touch in quite the way I thought I should.

But it sorta turns out that arousal and my body in general is so different that it comes on in a completely different way.

And now I'm back to exactly where I was vis-a-vis Being Extremely Honry but some weeeeird part of my gourd just had to recognize it as a different shape, with different emotions, and feelings...

@gaycowballoon it is definitely a huge change. I had mistakenly tried to relate it my previous T-based libido + arousal fora long while before figuring out that its like… inherently different. It comes from a different place, if that makes sense

@Oneironott Yeah, it's like...I thought it was gone, but the truth was that my body was just a step ahead of the interior language/shape of sex, and once those two things clicked back together, I started to feel a lot differently about the whole situation.