self operation, social media (+)
I have devoted a large chunk of my efforts on social media [twitter] to explaining myself, trying to walk through the steps of weird radical nonhuman living so that others might see.
And some have. I’ve gotten messages there and here and elsewhere of folks… thanking me? For changing their lives? And i even… love some of those folks as my partners and…
It’s been amazing, don’t get me wrong. I feel like i have done -good- work
self operation, social media (-)
But this is the duality. I haven’t been entirely happy with it. I have gotten so used to having to defend myself, or at least feeling the need to. I reboosted a video a bit ago talking about this and… i’ve been on the defensive since i started transitioning. Explaining and justifying and i realize it’s part of what i wanted to get away from.
I don’t want to be on the defensive. It’s miserable. I need to stop explaining myself and start -being- myself.
self operation, social media (-)
@Oneironott heck yeah it's not fun to explain yourself. to dig into those parts, expose the circuitry.
I'm constantly explaining, I'm coming out as an enby nuki and the one thing is, it's EXHAUSTING.
I'm on masto more than any social media/chat lately, and I feel safe. but even so it's tiring. I'm reconfiguring/recontextualizing myself and sharing it's exciting, and I love the feeling. but putting it into words is something I need a break from a lot.