-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

Correction and follow up to this is that actually I think I'm attracted to a lot of friends and I want to sexually please them and be a good toy and would 150% trust them and desire to play casually with them

Because it turns out I'm really attracted to nonhuman folks and low-key have a thirst for a number of folks

It's something I value just in.. being in a community and fandom that's naturally more open about such things. I get sparks to my empathic brain that are like "Your friends feel good right now" and I'm like "Yeah *smile* I'm really glad"

Y'all deserve all the pleasure that works well for you n.n'

I think one of my favorite things is just seeing exchanges from folks I care about playing sexually/kinky.

I fav such things so quick (and assume it isn't seen as too intrusive), because honest to my glow, I'm so very happy when my friends are happy and getting/giving pleasure n.n'

I hope that makes up for my horrible sexual joke before :P

I still prefer the ocean, FWIW

Talking to folks who have never seen the Great Lakes makes me realize that not many folks know that it's so big you can't see the other side.
it's like... really big, yo.
folks act like I've probably never seen anything like the ocean, but it at least looks like it in the summer except.. freshwater.

Some years you can pretty much just... go to Canada?

it isn't the safest thing, usually, but I remember a few years ago it froze over enough that it was

This time of year i’m always keenly aware that not many folks get to see a body of water as big as this lake freeze over.

It -is- a pretty sight. [that’s all ice]
https://awoo.space/media/gM1pPQ5w6AxVFcJkIw4

This is the second time I've seen the term "orthosona" and this is a very relatable term.
seperation there seems useful n.n'

I unironically love really queer furry beach aesthetic

I'm looking forward to things settling down, for sure, and working through things as time goes. It helps that my whole household and three other close friends are also heavily leaning towards moving also. At the very least, I have good friends I've leaned on for years moving to the same general place, and that helps me, mentally, in feeling less like I'm leaving -everything- here.

It's like that weird feeling you get before transition that's like "I can't even wait for the -shit- days"

I'm sure everything will seem like a scream of varying intensity for a few months, but I'm honestly looking forward to the night I go to sleep next to @emanate​ and wake up knowing that this is like... more or less my life now.
I'm looking forward to.. actually -contributing- to a community and looking forward to working hard. I've never felt so full of purpose as I do, and even though I always worry, perhaps excessively, about putting things on a pedestal... Seattle IS where my future is

2018

Holy fuck I don't even. I can barely think past January/February right now. I'm about to uproot my life and leave basically everything I've known. I would be -absolutely- terrified if it weren't for the community I am in, and the love that I have. I do NOT know how I would be getting through this otherwise. this community and my loves have made me genuinely feel that I am moving -into- somewhere I already have a place. I can't express how much that helps

Thank you mastodon for allowing my to only feel slightly weird making a big thread of posts despite a 500 character limit. Warnings/cuts help make things seem not so cluttered to folks who would rather scroll past

2017 was a DENSE, beast of a year and that barely covers it. I wouldn't compare your highlights to mine, or anyone elses for what matter.
it was a HELL year externally, with national politics wrecking us all emotionally and testing our limits on top of anything else going on in our lives. I struggled to find and keep a job while feeling my entire world seemingly shifting beneath me
It was a time of continued realizations, change, and self-improvement. I've spent a lot of effort on myself

-Got in therapy
-got on antidepressants
-Learned that I am ADD, plural
-actually spending effort and time to get what I need regarding my own mental health
-Actually starting to treat myself well and right for the first time in many years