-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

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I’ve been all over the place recently, good and bad… and just… thank you for your patience

I'm riding a calm high today, and I feel absolutely amazing.
[Love+Flow+Glow]

My friends are magic
I am magic
this is my world
and it is a beautiful, vibrant one.

Kelp

How the fuck yall
WHAT ARE BRAINS
How can i be feelin all this right now

‘WHAT DO YOU MEAN MAGIC IS REAL’ TAKE 69

HOW MANY GODAMN LAYERS -ARE THERE-

Vloelei you really need to find a better way to crosspost things to or from twitter so you don't have to keep copying your threads here

That isn't to say I have to be in one to be a toy though. I can still roll with that idea. I have no owner. I have pretty strict criteria for someone who would be one, and I'm certainly open to it...
but there's many types of relationships and perhaps for the most part I consider my toyness to be my relationship with the world, myself... and in a different way, my relationship with my friends and my community.

After all, I'm a toy. I want them (you!) to be happy.

It also means that if I can't focus? if I do mess up? *motions a few posts back* Depression won't take that and run with it. I'm loved. I help. I'm doing good. I -am- good, because I am a toy and toys are good.
And here's the thing that -I- never understood until I realized all that.

That's what a lot of d/s relationships -are about-. It's about what those dynamics allow us to or... give permission for us to do, act, think differently.

It's a mindspace in which Being A Toy comes with very innate, unquestionable things.
It means that I help. it means folks care about me.. for me. To feel alone? unloved? to worry about being in that state? it's silly for a toy to even question or think in such a way.
it means that I don't have to worry. Racing thoughts of failure or disappointment? executive function issues causing it to be -reaallllyyy- difficult to focus?
I don't need to worry. Only obey.
or in most casual cases: Do.

Being a toy is important to me. Just as important as other aspects of my identity. I relate to it not just on a level of purpose (pleasing others, spreading joy, etc) but being synthetic, created, as a strong metaphor for neuroatypical, identity-weird existence.
It's a way around certain fears or my anxiety, because being a toy is its' own mindspace that, mostly my weird (meant endearingly ;) ) postfurry community has granted that is a sort of.... elevated nonpersonhood.

My soft, synthetic heart
dreams of silicon and fiber
in a world that sees me alien
so I am, unabashedly inhuman
alchemizing ontological dissonance
into my inorganic bones

My soft, synthetic heart
Dreams of freedom of form
not to achieve imperfection
or any notion of godhood
but seize a peace in myself
that I've never had

My soft, synthetic heart
dreams of soft glow
and circuit veins
no egotistic gains
just empathic flow
an inner calm

My soft, synthetic heart
dreams of life without
melancholic inner pain
dissonance inside my brain
no want for everything
but a need for the one thing

I gladly give up Cleveland’s food options to horf smoked salmon piroshky piroshky any chance i can possibly get.