#tmituesday! I’m open to whatever you could want to ask me! ^.^
Wendy Carlos:
- Trans Pioneer
- Synth Pioneer
- Weird Al Collaboration Pioneer
- Furry Pioneer
(images h/t @baphometadata)
Gods, how i have MISSED the smell, taste, and feel of saltwater 💙♠️💙
https://awoo.space/media/ZB0CW63c3c-pW5X8B6E
https://awoo.space/media/545Gkpbgr_JqL5ucqI4
Foreign life, mh (-)
Days like this I end up walking around near tears overexerting myself because I -don't know- how to ask for help or talk to folks or even know who to go to... because I'm so, SO used to being fundamentally unable to tell folks what's on my mind lest they think I'm "crazy".
not that a childhood of abusive gaslighting helps any. Being told I'm exaggerating, dramatic, and never being able to ever honestly say what's on my mind.
I'm fucking 30 and I'm still this fucked up...
Foreign life, mh (-)
I'm not used to this. Any of this. Sometimes I catch myself still working my vocabulary around being nonhuman to protect myself until I realize... what folks I'm talking to.
I don't know how to ask for help, and I don't know how to handle being around so many folks who somehow look up to me and want my time.
I've still yet more folks I havn't met and want to meet and I can't even seem to grasp the basics of what being here -means- for me.
Strain (-)
It has been a difficult day. I strained myself too much moving and unpacking my stuff.I tried to work through my pressing species dysphoria and it only made me hurt until it was just as much a strain on my mental state as my physical one. Otherwise, I waited all day to hear back from my friend about moving more of my stuff and got no response in return. The rest of the day I spend in my room, again, because there's a lot of days I just can't interact much with folks.
rl lewds, libido
I should mention that it doesn't really matter if that's a strapped on dick or what. I get that and like
if you say it is your dick it's your dick >.>'
venty bits (-)
I didn’t ask for this body. This life. This insufferable dissonance. I reject my humanity. It burns my soul, and aches impossibly. *curls up and squeaks...*
emotiooons for ✨plushes✨(+)
It actually is making me cry and I don’t think i missed any of my belongings as much as these fuzzy friends ;~;
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing