-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
depression, trauma, coping.
I almost died. Numerous times. Some of my friends -did- die. I’m been so damaged by my trauma that i don’t even function like others do. It took so much for me to get here and i did and just… looking at what i went through and realizing how deeply and wholly… I can’t even begin to think of a word for it. Like… deeply and viscerally scarred and devastated i am as a being.
depression, trauma, coping.
Nothing made me realize just how bad things were than distancing myself from it all, and physical distance, as it turns out, was a big factor.
It has hit me in a crushing way, though, that i don’t seem to be able to really function right with. I mean, i keep crying and crying and sinking down and escaping when i should be doing work.
I went through so, so much and even though it was long ago, getting physically far away from the places i was traumatized hits hard
depression, trauma, coping.
I’ve had a moment today where i’m very much realizing how Not Okay i am and have been. I’m so completely oblivious to my own emotions that i’m just like “oh I’m really not okay aren’t i”.
Which seems silly because i’m in a really good place in life right now. I suppose, though, thats part of the issue.
lewd
oh GODS FILL ME <3
moods (nsfw)
Write “cum dump” on my chassis and fill me with spunk until i drool it 💙♠️💙
I should mention that if you live in and around Seattle and have been wanting to hang out/meet please feel free to give my a DM. Otherwise, please bare with me as this non-medicated neurodivergent otter thing tries to balance this social life
🎶My whole room smells like ruuubbber and i’m really sorry to my other housemates if the smell is escapiiing🎶
-> @oneironott@vulpine.club
boosted
Videogames; Self-promotion
Streaming Monster Hunter Freedom Unite now! twitch.tv/gracetveit
magic, woo
(Reflection and continuation)
Perhaps a sort of postfurry magic is when everything we would be and do starts to blend with all of that to create immensely altered spaces and states of mind. Spaces where sure, it’s not the same sort of real, but… for now? In this space? Well, it may as well be.
magic, woo
Magic is what happens when it blends together with the rest of your life and you form bonds with it. Using mental tools to interface and operating on metaphor until the metaphor has dissipated in your mind and the magic is still there.
Magic is real but magic nor real are what you’d think they are. There are things that are tangible real and another sort of real that is those mental constructs. I can’t point at depression, but it’s still there. It has a [negative] worth
magic, woo
[copied from elsewhere]
Magic is perception, suggestion, the liminal & altered states of conciousness. It’s multiple little acts over time born of their own worth in happiness forging an aspect of life that no longer works on the principles you came to understood… given its own life and living it’s own
@McMemeBot !order 4 cute critters
Starting to feel That Longing and it's about that time of night so... off to bed with me, and hopefully I'll just be quiet and go to sleep ;P
freewriting, neptunian
There is a smaller town in the deeps of Halcyon that rests on pools and rivers of a dense, silvery glowing liquid. This gives it a aesthetic reminiscent of that of an old Terran city of Venice locked in a brightly moonlit night at pretty much all times of the day. It's location and aesthetic has lent it a romantic reputation.
There is a nice restaurant by one of the larger rivers, lesser known for meeting folks you've been long separated from.
The new MBMBAM is probably the most relatable and hilarious thing I've heard
I take the scenes I see playing out to music and I record them. At times, I feel more like a field reporter than an author, with the paracosm as my field. On the other end, I'm not good with actual terminology or any left-brain approach to music/sound. I approach it like I would be reverse-engineering the process, telling stories that I have in my mind's eye.
Writing and music have been two sides of the same coin for me, and I'm not sure how i could be a writer without music. Music trances me, and tells me stories in a way that only music can. chords and harmony and layers from so many types of instruments that spark emotions in our brains and play with our associations to paint pictures in sound traveling through the air. Empathetic, communicative.
It's magic, honestly, and I had this opinion looong before I was ever spiritual.
I want to talk about music a bit, my relationship to it & how I've approached producing it, with the added note that i am not very experienced there.
I'll preface this by mentioning that I am inspired by this: https://patches.vizor.io/machinedrum/ocean-of-thought (cw: hypnotic induction)
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Species: Neoprene Otter (Otterprene)
Gender: Modular/Toy
Pronouns: ve/ver or they/them
Location: Halcyon <-> Seattle
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Vloelei Saleizhu [ID: HLY-2756-β]
Dreamer of many dreams and realities
Software Developer, Writer, Music Mixer and Producer, Leftist, proponent of morphological freedom, extremely otherkin and plural, and as positive as I can be.
Headmates with @Silverwing
Joined Apr 2017
