Raspberry Foxy @Raspberryfloof@awoo.space

a proper link this time:

https://twitch.tv/raspberryfloof

I guess tonight I'll be streaming ... eggs? >.>

twitch.tv/raspberryfloof

My spironolactone pills come in packs of 15 each, and my estradiol pills come in packs of 28 each (but I take 2 per day, so they last 14 days).

I have 7 packs of spiro pills, but only 6 packs of estradiol pills, because I've had extra spiro for so many refills...

I just want to be a soft cute cuddly foxgirl and let everybody cuddle into my tails...

oh whoa, and image galleries are left-aligned or something? they don't even end up in the center of the window anymore o.o

whoa, css is weird on awoo now o.o boosts take up way more space than they should...

There isn't anything else going through my mind right now besides "I am complete trash with no purpose in the world."

I want so badly to hurt myself right now.

I can't, because my mechanism keeping me from doing that is still functional.

But it is definitely being strained.

Today I don't feel much besides... angry.

I hate feeling angry.

If I ever do, it means something has critically failed somewhere, because I try taking so many steps to keep myself from being angry.

But I am.

I am incredibly angry, fuming, seething, ...

At myself.

Tasty. https://awoo.space/media/Mlw7teCoGjWK-Gk3NXA

Having brunch at Super Duper Burger and watching people walk by.

Today I had a lot of positive feelings followed by a lot of negative feelings...

... I think in the end, I came away with even more of a sense of not-belonging here, and thinking my anxiety issues are entirely to blame...

... but at least I got a bunch of game ideas? I probably won't make them... but at least I feel better about things and feel decently creative enough that I think I might actually be able to make a game of my own someday...