re: How hard did age hit me? Selfie/eye contact
@emanate Once I finish rebuilding my fursuit I would definitely appreciate an extra pair of hands! I'm covered on the editing and VFX side of things, but I'll keep you posted if I need help there too!
Fursuit transformation/body horror
Aaaaaugh! Oh my fucking p͎̠̰O͎͚̪͉̤ͅפ!̜̳̪͟
I forgot how slow and painful it is to manifest a new physical form!
Look away now!!!
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As I trudge on ahead to accomplish my deepest desires, I find myself reaching a light at the end of this long tunnel towards stability...
A sense of building anticipation as I slowly begin the process of patching together my fursuit... In anticipation of my freedom from months stuck in Babylonian entropy.
Months of isolation from my communities except for the signals I broadcast across the digital ether...
I look forward to finding my way back home...To all of you.
"To call a man a fool is not necessarily an insult, for the authentic life has frequently been pictured under the metaphor of the fool. In figures such as Socrates, Christ, and the Idiot of Dostoyevsky we see that foolishness and wisdom are not always what they seem to be."
- Sam Keen, Apology for Wonder
Achieving lucidity
Last night was the first baby steps into becoming fully lucid in a dream.
I found myself on a ride through a snowy, brutalist landscape before I found myself falling from what appeared to be 300 feet above ground.
It was through conscious action that my wings unfurled and I glided to a nearby rooftop where I picked up a laser rifle and started shooting at goons. This state of lucid awareness lasted a total of five minutes...
The hypnagogic state is lasting a lot longer too. Especially with the aid of white noise like a babbling brook. I'm on the brink of another threshold methinks.
Shift in Energetic Flow
I'm starting to notice that my energy patterns are phasing out of the model of chakras and into the eight circuits of consciousness. Yielding results that are more in tune with creating my own reality.
It's at this point that I'm feeling more streamlined and less muddled in my spiritual level grinding.
I love that we're starting to see more articles by people on the spectrum that blatantly call out the profiling we deal with on a regular basis.
https://medium.com/@troycamplin/a-pathological-look-at-neurotypical-behavior-ee77d41e7e81
Well... It looks like it may be time to part with my little spaceship. If I stand any chance of having a faster commute or any kind of a social life, I need a lower profile car with better gas mileage.
I miss everybody... I know I haven't been there as of late, but it's all a matter of getting my ducks in a row. Both within and without.
Cheers, everyone. Stay safe out there.
re: Healing, trauma, and the many layers of.
@Oneironott That's definitely how it goes. Peeling back layer upon layer of social conditioning to discover that we've always been perfect. That we are indeed worthy of love. *hugs* You've got this, hun.
Psychedelic use
Holy fuck. After talking to the dragon skeleton in the living room and disappearing into the forest I opened up in my fucking living room, I retreat back to my den to dance. The silhouette of my antlers like tree branches from my head.
I lie here collapsed in bed and what do I see? But my iridescent arm scales refractalllling light from my little lamp.
@starkatt I can confirm this. Just as I clocked out in SODO, there was a torrential downpour with what looked a flash of lightning on Beacon Hill. Followed by an audible crack of thunder. Thankfully it seemed to pass rather quickly.
This is Roady with the local weather report.
Back to you, Katt.
𝕀 ℍ𝔸𝕍𝔼 𝕄𝕆𝕍𝔼𝔻:
@Roady@dragonchat.org