Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

I need to taper off of sugar instead of going cold turkey. The crash has turned me into a broken down, paranoid mess that can't handle anything. I haven't felt so low, unaware, and unconscious since the time I was drugged a year ago.

New plan. Keep carbs, and just avoid refined sugar.

I have to admit that it's not just one thing that's wrong with me. It's a multitude of shit with a cumulative effect.

I need to be more mindful of the fact that after emotionally intense situations, like going up against a bunch of right wing crazies or a torrent of cops, I just need to be alone and cry it all out.

Once that negative energy latches on, I can't think straight, I can't articulate my speech, and it throws me so far out of alignment that I don't feel at all like myself.

I love the sight of concrete that has a patina of moss, algae, and ivy. The natural decay of human structures is very appealing in that regard.

Here's my recipe for my improvised paleo chicken soup.

2 rotisserie chickens
1lb chicken feet
Chopped carrots, celery, and (rinsed)leek
Cashews
Oregano and rosemary
Coconut aminos and salt to taste

1.Separate the meat and boil the bones+chicken feet with rosemary and oregano until the broth becomes a dense liquid gold.

2. Strain and add meat, celery, carrots, leeks, and cashews.

3. Continue boiling until cashews soften. Add coconut aminos and salt to taste.

I'm so glad I decided to change up my soup's mirepoix and use leek instead of white onions.

Am I the only one who's considered using color coded fidget spinners for clearing out chakras? I use a green one and it unintentionally fanned out a blockage in my heart. xD

Don't simmer the bones. Boil them. The fat and collagen will emulsify into a thick and rich broth similar to what's found in tonkotsu ramen.

Wait... It's been two weeks since I last smoked a bowl... What the hell's wrong with me?

Quitting sugar is weird. Throughout the day I'm tired, foggy, and paranoid. When I'm ready to go to sleep, I'm tossing and turning for hours with no hope of catching a wink.

Oh the things I go through to clear out my system. Bringing me to the brink of insanity. But it's all gonna be worth it.

I really need to do a double take on my posts before hitting the button... My ginormous thumbs keep hitting "b" or "v" instead of the space bar. As well as other mistypes from adjacent keys.

I had an intense dream last night that involved a 14 year old getting sucked out of a plane's emergency exit, adriving at a really dingy part of Hong Kong and winding up stuck in a crumbling building.... Still trying to figure out what it all means.

The emotional stability of a rabid grizzly bear who got into Tony Montana's cocaine supply.

It's so simple, yet I've been doing it wrong for years. Through my nose. Silently. Effortlessly. Yet, my body is so used to shallow and unconscious breathing that the feeling of a healthy rhythm is akin to getting high.

That being said, I apologize in advance for continued fogginess and irritability as I continue to find my way out of every chemical dependence I've accrued over the last ten years or so.

Quit:
Alcohol
Tobacco

Quitting:
Sugar

Will Quit:
Caffeine

I'm going as low cal and paleo as I can. Fruits, nuts, veggies, meat. Very little dairy. No refined sugar or starch.

I finally concluded:
My body scales are peridot, my belly scales are yellow citrine, my eyes are emeralds, and my hair/back ridge is copper wire.

I officially start truck driver training today! I've been working my butt off for nearly six months and it finally paid off!

Holy shit. Have I already been cigarette free for almost a month? Boy did THAT fly by!