Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

Shit. SHIT! Abrupt detonation on startup and an unusual knocking from my engine. Unfortunately, my van is currently stuck at the shop. This isn't just my vehicle we're talking about. This is my goddamn house. My entire livelihood... I seriously hope it doesn't cost a fortune.

It's interesting how a wound you never thought you had reopens. One person or event triggers it, and in an effort for no more drama, I begin to analyze the deeper meaning of my reactions. I'm left sobbing as I realize that this particular wound has festered from a chain of events spanning a decade and a half... It's time to make amends.

I've been tapering off, and doing everything to keep it together... Lately I've been feeling a gradual decline in my mood and I'm not feeling quite like myself... I need to act quick on heightening my dopamine levels before I have a psychotic break.

Time to bask in the foggy wilderness of the Issaquah Alps...

https://awoo.space/media/dq5Q5Yk2WeW7x0462wg

I found Rusty in my dream last night... Or maybe Rusty found me. Either way, I feel like I'm gonna cry right now. I miss that little dog, and it won't feel right when I go back to Montana next month and he's no longer there... Love you, little guy. https://awoo.space/media/QNeWiBCdEJ7fBKowy9Y

I'm inclined to host a small gathering at a beautiful campground on the Peninsula around mid to late April. The only issue being that it's a first come first serve space.

Can't believe I slept for at least 10 hours last night. Bleh. X..x

Now that I've stopped drinking... Nicotine is next. And already I'm starting to feel loopy, loud, and a bit on the moody side... Just have to stick through it. I've had many revelations without alcohol, and I expect quitting cigarettes to have the same effect.

Finding the right strain of weed is like finding a good buddy to hang out with. Remedy is like a good friend I go to with parties. Whereas other strains tell me whether or not I'm a good fit for them.

Mushrooms are like a therapist that I go to every so often when I need more clarity on my path and what direction I need to go.

What's to be said of ayahuasca or mescaline, I still have yet to uncover. All in divine time.

My relationship with booze was akin to six years of being married to a psychopath. Gaslit, abused, left wondering if I was the crazy one. But now that I've cut the ties, I realize it wasn't me. As any psychopath would, it tries to call me back. But I continue to ignore its beckoning.

Put in a PTO request so I can visit my family back in Montana next month. Can't believe it's been two years...

If I have but one goal in life, it's just existing. I just am. An increasing motive to maintain awareness of myself and where I wish to be in this universe. To stay conscious. To avoid falling into a comatose lack of awareness. A spiritual warrior that challenges the falsehoods of my ego.

@adeptomega​ Given the seller's from Germany and he threw in a bunch of extra stickers with his native tongue on them, would any of these be of interest to you? https://awoo.space/media/nLV13sKX7I-6vZI4kyY

Looks like I may need a little help embedding youtube videos on Mastodon. I've seen it done before, just can't seem to find any reliable resources on how to do it.

They finally came! https://awoo.space/media/s6JizmgI1jIwGWRS920

One reason I can't wait to become a truck driver? Not having to deal with as much people. Today's post holiday rush is leaving me staggeringly overwhelmed to the point where I almost snapped at a customer. As a driver I'll be spending 7 of those 8 hours behind the wheel in perfect solitary bliss.

Upside to working in a lumber yard: I can eat anything I want.

Downside to working in a lumber yard: I can't keep up with the insane amount of calories needed in a day.