Suvvin' Bengêsko Zhukel @Silviu@awoo.space

New employee at work is a TERF.

Found out when we were introduced and I corrected her when she called me ma'am.

Her response was "Oh, my gf uses he/him pronouns, too, so are you a butch?"

"No, I'm a trans man."

"Same thing, really~"

"Try again, I'm HR trigger happy, hon."

We haven't spoken again since and I hope I never have to before I leave.

I also apologise for the bad wording in that last toot, I've had a migraine all weekend and I think I had a mild seizure, but I can't be sure. Seeing my neurologist soon. Hopefully. He's been suspecting migralepsy.

I liek skull beasties.

New friend/art! Xir name is Artür Wêrshvulma.

She’s being a typical late middle aged white woman over fb drama and taking it too far. She’s making me dread going to work, and I’m coming home with a headache that’s bordering on a migraine- when I’m finally getting them under control.

I’m writing a LONG report on her to HR this weekend, but this is just another reason why I need to get out of here.

and just this morning, she pointed to my desk when I was in the other part of the lab, and called me a psychopath multiple times. She gives me ugly looks any time I’m near her and is otherwise just hostile and horrible to me.

A coworker took something I posted on FB out of context and started drama with a group lead over it, so I removed her. In retaliation, she’s now being horribly transphobic towards me, purposely misgendering me, and saying ableist things when she thinks I can’t see/hear, including things like “She ain’t right in the head” and “She’s retarded thinking she’s a man”

Not that I expect anyone to care, I just needed to vent while I seriously contemplate if my life can be salvaged.

It'd be better for Philippa if she didn't have someone like me dragging her down. My family hates me, I have no support here to keep from being homeless, I can't get out of this hateful place, I really am not seeing a point to living anymore when all I do is fail and disappoint.

I keep trying to get myself out of this situation and nothing is going right. I can't get a job in MD to be able to move, I can't afford to stay here, my coworkers have become hostile and cruel to me, and my mental health is deteriorating.

I'm considering spending my check on a gun and just ending it.

It's easier to get a gun than a job or help here anyway.

Interview never happened. I wasn't worth even remembering. I should have expected as much. I let myself actually believe that I was worth something.

and on TOP of that, I fell and I think I may have cracked a molar when my jaws connected during the fall. It feels like lightning is shooting through my jaw.

Today has not been good.

Found out garnishment is taking a whopping 200 from me this paycheck, leaving me with 550 to pay five bills that amount to just over 800

Someone find me a sugar daddy, my only option rn is a payday loan.

I'm THIS close to being in a safer, more affordable situation but gdi shit keeps HAPPENING

AAAA I HAVE A SECOND INTERVIEW ON FRIDAY

Hhhh interview any minute now

It's literally the same job I do now, but for animals instead of people

Aaaaaaaa I got a request to schedule a phone interview for IDEXX! SOME GOOD NEWS FINALLY

I don't have the 100 dollars to keep staying here. They're fucking PARASITES.