mood crash (-), that monster
It's sure great how much time I wasted with that miserable shitbag, and how much the memory will suddenly surge up of wanting to be his gay little boyfriend for so many years. I wonder how much earlier I might have figured out the gender stuff if that little shit hadn't been pretending to be interested in me.
Going to bed before the memories of that rat bastard can drag me down further.
re: mood crash (~), that monster
I really... REALLY wish I could offer a different answer, but every now and again my brain does a similar "Hey remember when really shitty time happened? Lets mentally relive those experiences now!" to me for things that happened 2 - 3 decades ago, so...
*Hugs softly*
re: mood crash (~), that monster
@JulieSqveakaroo Yeah. The past never gets better.
re: mood crash (~), that monster
So I guess that's just.... how it is now. Nearly five years of healing later, and every so often my brain is just going to implode, and there's nothing anybody can do about it.