Meditations on lesbiab
As a teen/young person, I used to find the supposed allure of the lesbian a huge turn-off; contrary to other young louts in my approximate age bracket, I recognized that they wouldn't want anything to do with me sexually and so there wasn't any point in chasing that particular forbidden fruit. It was like a signpost, proclaiming "You're not welcome here, this is not for you".
...I seem to be liking it a bit more these days, for somewhat obvious reasons.
Meditations on lesbiab
I can also remember having a strong "No, that's not right" reaction when doing RP scenes online in partial girlmode with another girl and having it described as a lesbian scene. I think I was forbidding myself from acknowledging that there was something to all this roleplay-as-feminine stuff, because clearly I was "a guy".
In the same way that I obviously was "straight" because I liked girls growing up and therefore couldn't be into guys.
Meditations on lesbiab
Oh yeah, almost forgot to end it with:
Girls!
Meditations on lesbiab
@Soreth ahahah yeah. learning that "bisexual" was a thing was a *huge* revelation for me. XD
Meditations on lesbiab
And now I'm thinking, "Yeah, girls are pretty awesome, and I'm in a relationship with a girl, and if someone called us a pair of lesbians I'd be kind of flattered while also flustered".
Guys can still be pretty hot, but that attraction has gotten a lot more complicated in a lot of ways. It was ALWAYS complicated, and I'm starting to realize that a lot of my "gay" hangups were, well, because I wasn't really a guy.