Weed, mh -
I keep going back to weed hoping it'll help, because so many other ppl find relaxation with it.
But I just have panic attacks almost every time I use it.
A clinical summary of symptoms while high:
- Increased depersonalization
- Increased dissociation
- Rumination, esp. wrt metacognition
- Body sensations (client reports "twinkling body")
- Increased social anxiety
- Persistent feelings of "fakeness, wrongness, feeling like an Android, a fraud"
Weed, mh -
My MotoG3 capitalized "Android" because of course it did
Weed, mh -
Okay, that makes sense. If I have enough spoons for it and manage to get my hands on something like Blue Dream, I might give it a try.
But not any time soon. I've slept and woken up and still feel mentally/existentially shaken up.
I think I'll begin to feel better/more real after I've had some coffee and maybe gone for a jog.
But right now my thoughts keep cycling "I'm not real, I've never been real, and this is shameful"
Weed, mh -
@Sparrow ah im sorry friend, that sounds rlly uncomfy. i def wasn’t trying to advise you to rush into anything fwiw, . i was just attemptinh to share some info about the substance incase it was grounding or helpful
Weed, mh -
It is helpful, don't worry! I mainly just meant that it's something I would want to try out, just probably not for a while. My curiosity and stamina are often at odds with each other. :P
Weed, mh -
@Sparrow sounds like maybe your strain is low on cbd and high on thc imo. some of that skunky weed isn’t even worth it for me tbh, i’ve got to go for a more cbd-heavy thing like Blue Dream