Sparrow 🐦 @Sparrow@awoo.space

Catching up on Walking Dead (it's my guilty pleasure, don't judge [okay go ahead and judge]) and of course the majority of Walking Dead fans hated the episode I really liked... Because it focused entirely on female characters for once. *massive eye roll*

I'm looking up classes to take next month when I have money and- Intro to Lyra? Aerial yoga? Yes please!!

Got my 5 month evaluation today.
Got "satisfactory" in all categories except "decision making", apparently I need to become more confident in my own leadership ability. Which isn't especially surprising, but... Confidence is hard. :/

My hair is behaving today! Still can't wait to get it cut soon though. It's getting really big.

Both my kid and I are sick but stuck at school rippppp

I am tired and also sleepy. These are two different things.

Different pic for improved lighting/mothra front and center because she is goddess.

So I stole these from my nephew and to be entirely honest I might not give them back.

Anyway, found this passage from a book about boundaries (ironically it's a super Christian book, and I am I no way Christian myself, but contains a solid psychological foundation). It's about how boundaries do (or don't) form from a childhood development standpoint, and it's very relatable for me.

Like "oh, that's what happened. Got it."

Also, I haven't yet bought this book about multiplicity, but a friend recommended it and I want to read it asap.

Talking with people on this website has been really helpful for me, because it's way less scary than saying any of this out loud, and (no offense) has fewer real world consequences than say, for example, talking to my mom might.

One of my main interests lately has been boundary development & its interplay with multiplicity.

(FTR: I don't have DID, but theory surrounding multiplicity gives me useful vocabulary to discuss my gender and identity issues)

So... Some background:

I've previously addressed my mental health issues (anxiety, depression, dissociation, gid) with a "bandaide" method: treat the symptoms, increase my toolset to cope.

This has definitely helped me become a higher functioning adult. But lately I've been wanting to address my core issues in terms of values, identity, cognitive distortions, and patterns of interacting with others.

(Cont)

Someday I would like to have a secure attachment style and a partner, but until then I'll enjoy being a good friend and my heated mattress.

And there's the tears. Refreshing, really.

Protip: Don't date me.

I'm a great friend, just don't date me.

Can we please stop making shows and movies about "brilliant" and "complicated" white male psychopaths while our cops regularly shoot and kill unarmed black people? Thanks.

Wow, this movie looks terrible.

Well, no, not completely terrible; I can appreciate dark, absurdist humor.

But on the other hand, I am *so sick* of mainstream TV's obsession with white (mainly cis het) male psychopaths and killers.

Can we please stop trying to understand these men, sympathize with them, and even worse, redeem them?

It's bordering on worship and it makes me sick.

/fin

Just woke up from a 5 hour nap, so yes I am living my best life, thank you.

Can it be nap time? I am super ready for nap time.

I'm full of tea and mogwai, so I think it's time to get back to sleep for a little while~ goodnight friends