gender stuff
Sometimes my gender, if I try to define it feels more like an alien or a non-human gender than a human one. It feels vaguely masculine but not necessarily attached to maleness. Like as if it was a masculine gender conceived of by a different species.
I think it really intersects heavily with how I never really considered myself human to begin with. My neurodivergent brain has always conceived of genders differently than the cisheteropatriarchy tells me I should, so my gender can't fit into the binary very well. Yet it's still kinda boy? But not human male.
I guess I'm just a deer buck!
re: gender stuff
And like, I've sometimes wondered if I am just agender or something but also...not quite? It's more like, a very idiosyncratic thing that FEELS like something of a gender but is also a cobbled together identity made out of the things that I find important and comfortable. And also represents the idealised form that i have because I don't feel comfortable in my human skin.
My gender is important to me, even if it's weird and indefinite and maybe made partially out of species stuff and other non-gender materials.
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@EGKangaroo i can only speak for myself in that my gender is nonhuman, inherantly. It's posthuman, even. i sometimes consider myself agender, but i am also someone whose use of gender as a tool of expression is very important to me. Maybe that has a different term entirely, but i'm content these days woth something like "postgender" or simply, widely, nonbinary or queer.
I find that my most comfortable answer to the question is something general that invites further discussion
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@Oneironott @EGKangaroo Yeah, I feel this. I'm a woman, yes, but at the same time there's also those times where I'm simply this big beastly wolf thing with little sense of gender to speak of; the werewolf part ties into things just as much as general femininity does, to me.
