"oh what? this album just took a weird turn." - me, before realizing that my iPod moved on to an autechre album
re: food, species feels (+)
honestly first thing I'm doing when I move out is get some of that stuff and just skip the sandwich part altogether, shit tastes amazing all by itself
blood (I'm fine), wondering aloud how family members of mine have managed to make it into their fifties, really not sure what to tag this with otherwise
So, way earlier today my dad bumped his shin into a door handle at work and apparently cut himself hard enough in the process that it started bleeding pretty heavily and he needed like seven stitches when he later went to the doctor for it.
He... somehow didn't notice any of this other than the act of bumping into the thing itself until he looked down at one point and found himself standing in a puddle of his own blood.
Fast forward to earlier tonight and (predictably, because my dad is nothing if not an utter fool) one of the stiches must've broken back open or something, because all hell broke lose and mom was scrambling to get it all cleaned up - when I came down a little while later I could smell the bloody tissues from the other side of the kitchen for fuck's sakes.
Like... how did this man make it to 56??? Like I realize I have a mad sensitive nose and all, but how do you *not* pick up on the feeling of what must've been a pretty bad cut in your leg, liquid going down it and pooling in and around your shoe over time, let alone the scent of it all after a while? I'm... in absolute awe.
dreams relating to identity stuff with a touch of body horror (+), long
nothing to wake you up from a series of not-totally-willing naps like dreaming that you're horrifyingly (but strangely enjoyably, at that) transforming into your lupine self
dreamlog incoming, I suppose: so, things started out by me waking up at my desk immediately wondering what the time was because it felt like I'd just slept through the entire night - sky was way, way brighter than it was when I'd fallen asleep, though somehow the stars were still visible. check the time, it's... 1 AM??? there was no sun to be seen anywhere, but it felt like a really overcast morning or during a solar eclipse not too long before totality and all - clearly day, but way darker than you'd expect
so I go about doing some of my usual stuff and the first thing I feel is this sensation of some part of me *aching* to come out and I couldn't put my finger on what, I end up running to the bathroom to drink some water from the tap, look outside for a brief moment and look back in the mirror
big ol' feral looking, glowing pair of eyes staring back at me. almost immediately after fur started growing in basically everywhere, thin across my face at first (plenty of fluff along the jawline though) and I could -feel- and hear my bones warping when my muzzle started growing in and my teeth began taking up a lot more space within it, ears growing pointier and slowly moving up all the while
almost matched the avatar in looks before I finally woke up just checking myself out and touching myself all the way through, the whole thing was -so- goddamn vivid and I'm still kinda reeling from it, ahaha 💙
(avatar by @VondranArt@twitter.com, header by @TeknicolorTiger@twitter.com)
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Transgender werewolf from outer space | AKA Thaminga Vesemxoq | multimedia artist | minors dni | therian | follow requests welcome | also known as @VeraLycaon@twitter.com
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