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Welp, now I'm officially 30. This feels weird.

re: Mental Dump, Emotions are complicated, Mostly +? 

I also need to get out of the habit of -constantly- re-editing what I say because I'm terrified of being misunderstood. Fuck my brain being the way it is, seriously.

Now back to your regularly scheduled postings.

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Mental Dump, Emotions are complicated, Mostly +? 

I wish explaining my emotions or thoughts was easier and wasn't just me bumbling through trying to word them.

Most recent example is trying to explain my positive feelings towards my own boyfriend and provide thoughts and re-examining the conversation and how I approach it is so... ugh. I'm at least glad they are understanding but... Go me.

Expressing emotions or deeper thoughts have always been a challenge for me, because its hard for me to word them. A mix of hiding them and a mix of just not fully understanding how to conceptualize them in full...

Emotions are messy, and are not super logical, and anything to do with them used to be a major anxiety point... Still is, but thankfully not as bad now that I've been forcing myself to be a little more open.

Weird Brain Stuff, ~? 

Realizing me being exhausted exacerbates issues with communication I already have, mostly in reading too much into context or being concerned about my lack of grasping it leading to conclusions and finding social cues easier to miss.

For those interacting just have a bit more patience and be very clear and precise so I can easily parse. Thank you ^^

Socializing is hard. x.x

Mmmmm... Internet outage during my prime time, time to tether and be grump.

re: firearms 

@Kilroy@snouts.online I'll study up and see. I could definitely use some stress relief on the range. It's loud archery!

re: firearms 

@Kilroy@snouts.online I'm just overly cautious given the country's stance on "Green", even if I'm legal in my state with a card. I know state wise it is legal to own but not federally.

re: firearms 

@Kilroy@snouts.online Unsure. I'm sure I can borrow friends so long as they are there and supervising. But yeah I'll have to research that a bit and see ^^

re: firearms 

@Kilroy@snouts.online yeah know the feeling. I sadly can't own firearms at the moment due to having a medical card... (Here's hoping politics change there) So miss the range and miss having a conceal piece and miss the range.

I'd say see if you can squeeze in the time on a long weekend, even if for a short bit ^^

I could cook, or I could microwave a frozen meal.

Frozen meal wins this night.

Tomorrow I think I'll make a mushroom chicken bake, or maybe some parmesan chicken.

(edit: thanks autocorrect, I love you.)

I accidentally spilled orange juice on myself today.

I smell delightfully citrusy.

re: Birdsite negativity, violence mention 

@Fringebirb The book that contains faces is much the same (especially from parts of my family, woo..) Easier to just be rid of both and enjoy not having to see "less agreeable content" spewed every other post. >.-.<

@kistaro Perhaps! I do need to remember I live in a desert now...

re: Mature, derpy commentary 

@Kilroy@snouts.online Now that right there is a dang good idea, I tell you h'what.

Ever have days where you feel perfectly rested, mentally sharp, and yet still absolutely exhausted?

Mature, derpy commentary 

If I opened up a BDSM store, I could use the tagline: "We sell (pro)Pain and Pro-pain accessories."

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