Veladynee Amaren @Veladynee@awoo.space

Living in the desert, you really begin to appreciate the color brown.

Like the sand. And the rocks. And the mountains. And the first two hours outside the window of any flight.

Feeling like I strain too thin myself sometimes, but at the end of the day I still think its worth it.

But I do need the trip coming up this weekend, to spend some time with my partner and disconnect a bit. Hopefully it'll go well. Can't shake that anxiety due to the time of year being when bad things happen, relationships failing, losing friends, family stress from the past. Finals when I was in school.

Feeling a bit emotionally weak at the moment. Build up from the day..

Woke up needing to talk someone out of considering suicide, followed by giving advice to someone on an unrelated but intensive issue.

Then had to help my roommate with something emotional, followed by potentially needing to file a police report on damage to their and I's cars.

Yesterday had to deal with legal stuff with my family.

This is all ontop of nightmares each night.

Mood remains pooltoy. Has consistently for months. Had a lewd drawn which I might share if people are curious.

... Debating an official ref for a pooltoy version of myself and commit to the lewd.

Today's mood is pooltoy.

I really need a set of potions at the ready for casual daily TF.