@Zauberin not that it made me functional to realize that lol. but I think I'm closer to the truth now and it's easier to accept I have real disabilities and I'm not just "lazy"

@Zauberin ohhhh actually duh, I do have a recommendation!!!! but it's not an article it's a book. it's called "laziness does not exist" and it's by a nonbinary person who is very sympathetic to people with struggles who are stigmatized as lazy or unmotivated

@Resni thanks, though I can't afford books right now. As for the kind of motivation problem, it is mostly a mix of anxiety and ADHD executive dysfunction.

@Zauberin oh I'm sorry about not being able to afford stuff! and yeah adhd and anxiety is what I have too (among other things), it's suuuper hard to get past :( but yeah I think framing it as "motivation" when it's those problems is a big trap. but I'm not very functioning so maybe I'm not the best advice-giver haha

@Resni yeah, I'm not always good at describing my problems, and motivation is how I'm used to describing it

@Zauberin yeah, I get that for sure. I'm just saying because it's super tied into the thinking that people like us are lazy and not trying and if only we actually tried for real then our problems would go away. the problems is like you posted that once we get away from this ableist way of thinking then the amount of resources to help us reeeaally thins out