mh musing, derealize/personalization
i think i experienced ego death when i was younger. i can't tell if i have undiagnosed add/adhd or if my brain is just really that empty at idle. i feel entropic. it's also specifically 1.30a and i know if i start thinking about mh after midnight it's a self-trigger to dissociate, but. it's.. easy? comfortable? i can just sit and think of nothing. be nothing.
anyway.
i wonder what the weather tomorrow will be like. i hope it's nice.