mh-
kinda makes me wonder what might have been. i feel old and broken a lot of the time these days. some of that is internalized ageism, but i genuinely feel worn down,
like there's a me that i'll never have the energy to be, a me that could self consciously shape my appearance to please myself and provide a comfortable skin to walk around in.
idk the last year has been pretty hard, but so have the years before that. i don't feel very resilient anymore.