dissociating in a discord vc with a bunch of transfem ppl who work food service is wild
food service is literally just compressed dissociation tbh
god this feels bizarre
the midwest is just so... spread out, in a way that makes connections feel thin and thready, and everything blunted, like the feeling of pulling into a gas station in the middle of the country at 3am after leaving a family gathering you didn't want to be at
it's the thick emotional blanket of fuzz behind your eyes, like a storm rolling in, when all you can do with your friends is go to the nearest target and hang out
it's the way that every square mile has been habited but in the most peculiarly depressing ways, the spreading of needless human nonsense over the land in a dedensification of people, splitting them apart and putting everyone on the edge of someone elses' horizon
