Demi @demi@awoo.space

i think the hardest part of everything i’m going through is trying to deal with how discarded and ignored i feel by the doctors i’m asking for help from. reading this story about things i will never personally experience, is hard; but the treatment by doctors is all too familiar to me https://www.autostraddle.com/begging-to-be-sterilized-427884/

hmmm. okay well i got almost 8 hours of sleep last night; which is a lot better than 5, but still wish i could sleep some more.

i want to believe that there is a future where i don’t feel dreadful all the time; but it’s real hard to consider that when every day is a monumental struggle.

i barely slept last night and still feel dreadful so i guess i’m going to bed early and hope to keep myself occupied tomorrow with deck-building until the destiny patch is out

guess who is getting back to reading 🙄🙃 https://awoo.space/media/QhCxme1cgYT7EE5IhzM

Setessa on Theros sounds like a great place to live https://awoo.space/media/YUVt5DKvBDXyb1RXQSY

well i woke up because i was thirsty and now i’m in too much pain to go back to sleep so i guess i’ll be napping today.

i feel like my body is failing; this is dreadful.

fuck, i feel so weak; even standing for an extremely short period of time is leaving me hurting after i lay back down

tremors are real bad today; not big but continuous for most of the day. i hope that neurologist appointment happens soon

i hate how much physical and emotional pain i’m in, all the time. it makes me feel inhuman, i never get a break and it is killing me.

gods this migraine today is brutal and won’t relent at all.

ugh, today’s brand of feeling like garbage is a headache and lethargy. maybe i should just take a long nap all afternoon

i don’t feel like shit today but i am super sore. maybe all of the walking yesterday? i prefer this to feeling like utter garbage.

tfw “meow” shows up as a default word in quicktype

another, almost 3 hour nap, in the middle of the afternoon and i still feel awful.

i got 7 hours of sleep last night and i still feel like i’m going to fall asleep on my feet; ugh this is dreadful

i think one of the best unsung benefits of a walking cane is the potential it has to extend your personal space by 3 feet all around

ugh, well this is going to be fun. 8am and i already feel like garbage and want to go back to sleep.