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that said I'm feeling nauseous in a particular way I haven't felt in a long time, and I vaguely feel like there's sparkles in my eyes, which is also a thing I hadn't felt in a long time

I suspect I might end up having a bad day.

This morning I (purposefully) ate some MSG for the first time in a long time, to see if it still affects me how it used to.

I'm definitely feeling a bit Off but I'm not sure if it's MSG or just psychosomatic. But it's like my brain is being squeezed. And I'm having some mild tactile hallucinations (which used to be my first sign that I'd eaten MSG), but again, that could be psychosomatic.

Back when I had very definite MSG problems (i.e., in college), I was chronically dehydrated, stressed, and sleep-deprived, and also ate a LOT of junk food that had a crapton of MSG in it. After I finally figured out what was going on I cut MSG out of my diet entirely, at least as much as possible. Around 10 years ago I did do an experiment with having some purposefully-MSG-laden soup which was inconclusive, but what I'd always found even in college was that while a specific set of symptoms were always linked to MSG, having MSG didn't always cause those symptoms, and it was hard to tell if it was a threshold thing or a buildup thing or a co-occurent thing (like MSG along with something else).

Anyway the other thing is back when I was very MSG-sensitive, I could distinctly taste MSG as its own thing, and the rare times I'd stumble into MSG in something I'd very distinctly pick it up. The sausage I ate this morning didn't trigger anything like that in me.

So maybe my brain is no longer so attuned to it that it causes me problems.

I'm not going to go out and start eating all the Doritos or anything, but maybe I don't have to be quite so vigilant about ingredients listings anymore.

Fiona doing her best impression of 1978 Garfield

I posted on Nextdoor and a kind person came by and did it for free, and only asked that I donate to one of his favorite charities. Which I suspect is the only good thing to ever happen on Nextdoor.

If kitten is so great why didn’t they ever make kiteleven?

I wish I'd heard about #fedivision before a day after it ended. Looks like it went from start to finish in about a week and a half? Hopefully this becomes a recurring thing.

In the meantime, if you want a short-term songwriting challenge, https://songfight.org has been around for close to 21 years now and it's still going strong.

As annoying as it was that Werner keeps on absentmindedly pooping on the floor, I was taking comfort in the fact that at least he was still peeing in the box.

Emphasis on "was."

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I needed a doorstop but Target only had transparent ones. I guess traditional brown doorstops stand out too much... like what you’d want a doorstop to do.

I have been fibro-flaring quite a lot lately and I've started needing my cane a lot more. I'm also looking into getting a disabled parking permit. I feel like this is a threshold that I was hoping to never reach.

Fibromyalgia sucks. I really suggest never having it.

Anyone in the Seattle area able to help me out with replacing a kitchen faucet? I used to be able to do this sort of thing myself but, y'know. Fibromyalgia.

I think the controls for it should be a slider bar that you have to drag left and right to indicate your diaphragm position

but you have to carefully slide the mouse pointer to stay on the track or else you cause a bronchiospasm

oh wow it turns out that Synology Surveillance Station only comes with licenses for two cameras? And additional licenses are $60/camera? What the hell!

Of course the night before my security camera for my garden arrives, something dug up my potatoes. Coincidence?!

Yeah probably

this podcast episode hit me at a particularly relevant time: https://theadhdmanual.com/2021/05/27/episode-25-thoughts-on-burnout/

You’ve heard of walking simulators, get ready for: breathing simulators

Remember to breathe, or your character dies

I'm finally watching Star Wars IX, and it's not as bad as I was led to believe, but it also helps that I already knew all the spoilers.

Mostly I'm just amused by how so many of the characters are affecting a British accent, except for John Boyega who is going out of his way to not sound British at all.