I really want to ask advice about what people think my next steps should be.
@Leucrotta investigating options isn't the same as making a long-term decision. it's good to know what you're getting into. that said, it's also good not to overextend yourself and find yourself in dire circumstances later because of it. sometimes you have to take a risk to find out what you're capable of.
heh, the best "advice" I can give is "what do the cards say?" XD