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after a series of unrelated events, I dreamed that I was at a hotel restaurant and noticed a disturbance in the crowded parking lot outside. the "disturbance" was a large black animal that was attacking and killing people. it had a catlike body, somewhat larger than a tiger, but not as bulky, with two tails and what looked like a hammerhead shark kind of head. it was eventually killed, but then more started appearing, and people were told to stay inside.

I was finally able to sleep, fortunately, and slept well and long, so I feel better now. I also feel like I'm camping out in the living room, using my phone as a mobile hotspot to get internet to my laptop, but it's what works. grocery delivery today; otherwise, it's a day of staying at home and not doing much other than continuing recuperation.

aaaaaaaa
too tired to stay awake
too congested to sleep

anyway, I've taken my NyQuil, it's time to attempt sleep. goognight awrrooo, dream well and wake in radiance. <3

between sick and internet hijinks, I'm going to be less present than usual for the next couple of days, I suspect. I'm having Thoughts, but I'm not sure if they're ready to be expressed here or what. in any case, I'll be around; as always, DM or @ing me will get my attention; <3, dream well, and be kind to each other.

deeply rethinking this "go to store today" idea in favor of "have Safeway deliver some stuff later on and stay inside all day" instead. it wouldn't kill me if I *had to*, but I don't think it's that urgent, and I'm increasingly convinced the unpleasantness will far outweigh the benefits. :|

I haven't seen "Lefty," the crow whose left foot won't unclench, in a while. I don't think zie was a local, though; zie may have just been hanging around here on a winter forage-safari.

I'm more sad, and concerned, that I haven't seen or heard any coyotes at all this winter. this should be great coyote territory. it may be that there's some around, but they're more reclusive and I just don't see them... but I miss them.

just fed the last of the peanuts to the crows, after hearing Junior's distinctive "caw caw *kek*" outside. I put out a dozen or so shelled peanuts--I buy them with the shells, but the nuts that break open mean that the debris on the bottom is mostly husks and shelled nuts--and the crows happily gobbled them up. "Mom" (I *think* she's female) was nomming them industriously while Junior watched and occasionally tried gaping at her in hopes of a handout, then Jr snacked off the suet feeder a bit.

mmmm.... teeeaaaa. (you know you've been really sick when drinking peppermint tea with honey is This Whole Big Almost Overwhelming Thing)

what time is it?
it's stagger around blankly with tissues stuck up my nose o'clock!

I don't think I've slept more than two hours since night before last. the NyQuil in't working any more. time to pop some DayQuil, drink caffeine, and try to stay awake all day so I can maybe sleep tonight.

UUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH