I've talked about it in therapy alongside discussions of my gender, because really they're one in the same. My androgyny relies on my nonhumanity and my gender is informed by it. They're entirely inseparable for me, and that's why I consider this as much a part of my whole transition of being as anything else. I can't transition gender-wise without the species modifications, too. I will never be comfortable or happy without both sides of myself fulfilled and recognized.

Over and over for an entire year, I had to put my first appointment to get the first paw done off over and over because finances have been so hard. And when I finally got the first paw done, I CRIED. I cried and smiled at it for so long, stretching out my footpaw and finally seeing something right and connecting with that part of my body. And I can't push off my appointment on the 30th now for another gods-know-how-long. I can't stand this ugly, distressing mismatch. It hurts.

And I don't know how many people will take this seriously. I figured this would be the place I'd have the most luck, but even here I worry.

There's only so much I can do to get someone to treat this with the same seriousness as an SRS donation post. But I'm not lying when I express how badly I need this, how much my therapist has supported my whole transition, how incredibly painful it is to live this way knowing people think I'm a joke.

All I can ask is for help. :(

Just wanted to keep others in the loop! I still need more but I've gotten donations already and I honestly still can't believe it and am deeply appreciative of every single one. Even small donations help and I'm really honest-to-gods floored and moved that folks would help me out like this. Thanks everyone who's donated and boosted so far! I got 5 days left till the appointment and Im still under target so it's definitely still open!

@howlingalice
I donated. Hope that helps. I'd like to maybe be able to do something like that for my species dysphoria some day, and, well... yeah. I could spare a little money, so there you go.

@myst It's incredibly appreciated, and I wish you luck in your own struggles with dysphoria ​

@Ronja Absolutely! I have one of them done and it's amazing how much it changes the way I see my paws to look down and *see* my paws