Hey Awoo + friends, i really need some help. Im very suddenly out of a job, struggling to find a new one/make money, and am halfway through a really important part of my transition.

I have AWFUL species dysphoria that causes enough distress that Im in therapy for it, and getting paw tattoos on my feet has been a huge step in relieving that. In order to afford the other half of my tattoo I need at least $150 to cushion the $300 cost. Paypal donations to chris@sgreig.com are honestly appreciated.

To give some background, I've been struggling with species dysphoria since I was a little kid. I've always felt my body was wrong, needed to be more canine than primate, on four paws not two feet. It's caused me the same distress as my gender dysphoria and I've just as badly wanted to injure myself, have had just as much immobilizing depression, and have felt just as divorced, alien, and dissociated from my body as my gender dysphoria makes me feel. This is HELL.

I've talked about it in therapy alongside discussions of my gender, because really they're one in the same. My androgyny relies on my nonhumanity and my gender is informed by it. They're entirely inseparable for me, and that's why I consider this as much a part of my whole transition of being as anything else. I can't transition gender-wise without the species modifications, too. I will never be comfortable or happy without both sides of myself fulfilled and recognized.

Over and over for an entire year, I had to put my first appointment to get the first paw done off over and over because finances have been so hard. And when I finally got the first paw done, I CRIED. I cried and smiled at it for so long, stretching out my footpaw and finally seeing something right and connecting with that part of my body. And I can't push off my appointment on the 30th now for another gods-know-how-long. I can't stand this ugly, distressing mismatch. It hurts.