s0rd @howlingalice@awoo.space
- pronouns today:
- they/them i guess
The Flock⛦23⛦pronouns vary⛦dnfi under 18
a mess of blackbirds in a trenchcoat all trying to be the same person and variably succeeding.
Joined Oct 2017
I popped an old All American Rejects CD in the car when i was out with Medical BF bc I just wanted to listen to something that wasnt the same 4 CDs yknow?
And I forgot how much I actually like AAR? I needed me some emo I think.
oversized thrift store granny sweaters are nonbinary culture
:D My long-distance partner n metamour got me ALL The Nancy Drew games on Steam for Yule and Im so excited and feel so loved ahhhh
special interest mode, ENGAGE
neg MH
Joined a server advertised as being for positivity/recovery and my welcome was being condescended to and treated like shit because I dared to say that being @'d just so someone could make a kink joke and tell everyone in the server was kind of triggering when Im there like. Looking for hypersexual disorder resources and support. Which is logically an 18+ topic when Im 21. But no apparently 18+ is for shitposting and im just butthurt and "lol resources who?"
k cool thx for triggering me
someone mentioned something about having a horizontal buttcrack so now Medical BF and I are sitting here trying to figure out how the anatomy of a horizontal buttcrack would work
hey out of curiosity, where are my fellow object-loving folk? apparently my objectum sexuality decided to remind me it exists and im as gay for pylons and cars as i am girls so i wonder whom else
s0rd
boosted
not as silly, postfurry
Postfurry actually was the catalyst to me connecting all the wires that didn’t seem right in my life, from my interests to my gender and species. Postfurry told me that it was okay to give all of this stuff meaning that was all previously “just escapism”. It showed me that it is a window to our hearts and that we are allowed to take all that we love and desire, weave it into a narrative and self, and not just say “this is me”, but BE this Us.
I told Medical BF that Im replacing/adding to the 70 pushups a day I've worked up to with one full rep of Caramelldansen and I'm waiting to see:
1. how long i can keep doing it (goin strong there)
2. how long before it either breaks him or he gets used to it or BONUS joins me
weed; personal testimony to Mutant Standard being great
can't do that with just any emojos
sad; i need MORE hugs gods fucking pls
I love being completely unappreciated as an admin and unrecognized until someone has shit to talk about me or something about me to mock and ridicule.
I love feeling so attacked and unappreciated and worthless that it makes me fucking cry and leave a community, even if for a day or two, that I had a big paw in helping to build.
Love being the admin that gets shit for just doing my job even when no other staff gets shit for doing the same moderation.
sad; i need a hug ok
Wow I love being personally attacked through public and obvious vagueing on other platforms until I cry ( :
Playing that new Scare Bear's Pizza Tycoon game :V I swear more at these animatronics than I do at the Massholes that give me panic attacks on the road :V
lewd silliness; transition
Im still gonna make jokes about my huge tiddies even after top surgery tho
gender crisis; dreams bout surgery
welp. I had a mini crisis over whether or not i wanted top surgery bc I like my tits in a sexual context and wasnt sure if i wanted to give that up or not, but I had a dream last night where I got top surgery, and looked in the mirror and was all :DDDD
But the next moment I looked in the mirror and had long, flat, sagging breasts that dont look like what i have now and i was like ??? wtf this isn't top surgery what happened D:
I think this decides it, then :V
especially bless my girlfriends Poppy and Gabriel for being beautiful and good and I'm gay
thinking about girls and how cute they are and how much I love them actually is making me feel less depressed
bless girls
questions about Zoloft/sertraline
Started trying SSRIs again with Zoloft, and wheeeee it's making my depression worse. :V I forgot that SSRIs make shit worse before they make it better, but the worry, ofc, is that it will just continue to make me feel like shit.
Has anyone else gone on Zoloft, had this symptom, and come out the other side alright and feeling better once it kinda..kicks in, I guess?
i got so little sleep last night that i fell asleep in the waiting room of my therapist's office RIP
angry vagueing about someone vagueing me on another platform
Like, once we actually got asked almost indignantly if we expected a writers' position we opened up to be a non-paying position like ???? Bitch we run the thing and
you think WE get paid??? I WISH I got paid, considering I put this shit on my resume as volunteer work. It's ALL volunteer work and it's because I love and care about this community and it's exhausting when it feels like no one else does.
- pronouns today:
- they/them i guess
The Flock⛦23⛦pronouns vary⛦dnfi under 18
a mess of blackbirds in a trenchcoat all trying to be the same person and variably succeeding.
Joined Oct 2017
