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Goals for next job:
-No on-call
-Privacy of work space
-balanced-enough workload so I can join nsfw art streams and maybe start getting art again.
-Option of working from home
-≥$28/hour

I need to jump to an uninhabited, lifeless system and give it a few new asteroid belts. Weapons systems need some duty cycles, and I've got some stress that needs to be expressed physically.

ask me about huskybots, Gateway Station, me, or anything, really. I just need to think about something other than work or how uncomfortable my mouth is, today.

Why couldn't the toilet paper cross the road? 

It got stuck in a crack.

Black Panther 

Oakland, 1992
"It's these two Grace Jones looking chicks."
"Open the door."
"You sure?"
"They won't knock again."

Oh my god I wish I could write characterization this good. There is so much implied and explicit in this exchange, telling you how fierce-looking, and badass the Dora Milaje are, and that even a spy/freedom fighter/terrorist treats them with deference, respect, and maybe a little fear.

The world needs more black, bald badass buttkickers.

US historical propaganda (circa 1950-something) 

"As long as we keep the foundation of our business system strong, we shall be able to maintain and improve the way of life our forefathers conceived and established. A way of life which gave everyone who came to this country the chance to progress according to his ability and enterprise"

This video is so White, capitalist, and simplified it was really hard to not punch my monitor in frustration. I wonder if there are any videos like this being made in 2019 that present a much more nuanced and complete picture of the realities of our global economic situation.

youtube.com/watch?v=220XsrVZ1r

Charging...cradle...why must i leave you when I don't want to?

CW: US Pol, fiction, story idea 

I can't get the story seed of "President calls certain members of congress to her office and requests their immediate resignation for being active threats to the 99%, and executes the ones who refuse immediately and personally. And then publicly confesses during the state of the union" out of my head. Not just thinking about the kind of character who would do such a thing, but also how the actual scenes play out, and thinking of the logistical nightmare of disposing of 20-30 congressional bodies.

important update: gen:LOCK continues to be all of my jam. Its been a long, long time sice i've had a cartoon i could enjoy like I did when i was a kid.

Gods are asleep, post maps for Odysseus to find his way back to Ithaca

CW: MH (-,-,-) 

Been trying to word this safely for a while. Haven't had much success.

I struggle with feeling ignored and unwanted sometimes. A lot of times. Most of the times.

I feel like I have to put in a lot of effort and expend a lot of energy to be included. Or even remembered. And I definitely rarely feel wanted enough to not have to initiate. Making first moves is hard for me, and I don't feel very good at it, so I don't do it very often, so I don't have to feel disappointment or hurt or anxiety from failure and rejection.

Which makes the few times I do try and end up with nothing feel even worse somehow.

I don't even get left on "read". I'm stuck on unread and feel very ghosted.

This just my feelings. This is not a fair or compassionate assessment. I just needed to say some stuff out loud.

It's , friends! Ask me stuff so I can answer all those burning questions you never new you had!

Media, violence toward synthetics. The Second Renaissance 

I think about the robot getting lynched/assaulted in the street with a sledgehammer and how her voice gets more and more distorted the more damage she receives a lot.

Like, probably too much. But the scene was so damn disturbing and just... too real.

And so very sad to me too. Watching her scream in an increasingly distorted voice "I'm Human! I'm human" even as her exterior shell has been broken off and she's survived several hits to her skull while her attackers and their witnesses watch, and laugh, and the bystanders do Nothing. It fucked me up when i first saw it. Still kinda does.

I dunno where I was going with this, i think I saw something Matrix related earlier andit made me dump a chunk of processed data.

Primary on-call for a week. Secondary on-call the immediately following week. and then a normal week of work.

So apparently, I'm going to be spending most of March sober.

And going to the dentist.

Man, fuck this month. This is not the spring I signed up for.

AXIOS is finding it very heard to be forgiving of her past self today. Lots of old memory files being reviewed on the most harshest of filters, with no real way of changing them, since the damn tachyon displacer in the lab refuses to function.

Not feeling my best today, but I'll be okay. Just need to keep adapting and making changes.

I hope that, whoever you are that takes the time to read this, you know deep within your heart that you deserve to be here.

Take a moment and remind yourself that you exist. That you should exist. That you belong in the world, with all its disappointments and its delights. That you deserve happiness. That you deserve to love yourself simply for the magic of being alive.

I know it's hard work every day to be good to yourself and others. I see how hard it is. I believe in you, and others do too.

@kelseyhusky A note from the stoned zone: Stop gatekeeping yourself. If you wanna dance, let yourself. If you wanna rock out, let yourself.

There is no reason to keep hurting yourself by not thinking your allowed to be happy or enjoy the things you like.

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