🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

-- Swimsuits are bullshit sometimes, but i need to get one that fits and can withstand the way I play. The pride-pandering impulse purchase was just a little bit too small to be comfortable or Rex enough for all these chocolate curves.

-- Diving after a 17 year gap has made me realized just how much my bio-frame has changed from the cached tactile map from my Varsity days. There are a couple of things there that weren't there the last time.

-- Feeling my tits bob and float on the surface at the shallow end is such a fun and silly feeling. I love it.

I forgot just how much fun playful immersion is. I haven't played water in 17 years. And I didn't realize how much I missed and needed it. I'm gonna be in the fabrication lab for a while. Gotta start speccing out a water-play frame and platform.

Oh shit, y'all. Strap the fuck in.

Disregard that. Stoned Kelsey over exaggerates often. Here are some more of her thoned stoughts:

-- Dade Murphy is a worthless, but attractive twink.
-- I paid attention to Kate Libby for way different reasons than I was supposed to.
-- Nikon and Cereal are the only (joking, not serious) acceptable OTP. Don't @ me

-- Good bio-family respects chosen family.
--The kids I watched this movie with in high school tried so hard to recreate the tribal vibe of the Hackers.
-- This movie shaped a lot of my heuristics for what is considered "friend shaped"

--"Voodoo People" is the song chosen for when hackers are being Hackers: using their knowledge and skills to manipulate the world around them like the trickster gods of old we have turned computer people into.
-- I wish the FBI comedic relief wasn't Black.
-- I remember the _/idea/_ of cyber clubs like Cyberdelia far more than the reality, except for in IRC RP chatrooms, where the theme was an actual cyberclub.
--It was a nice bit of payoff that Joey got to finish his hack and copy the whole garbage file. Shows growth during the character arc.

--When I was young, I thought dismissing Cereal to "fix the phones" was the removal of a silly comedic relief distraction from a life-and death situation. Then I remembered that /Cereal/ was the source of the "Technicolor Rainbow" library The sent him to fix the phones, cause he was the best one for the job. Even better than Phreak, who has been shows tricking the phone company repeatedly.

-- The smartest and dumbest coded characters are both Black. Nikon is shown figuring out code without the mystical fractals, he has a photographic memory, He plays chess against Jewish people in the park. He also has his own place, and can walk through Ellingson Mineral unmolested by security. Agent Gil is loud, obnoxious, is shown to be very in over his head and not understanding relevant terminology, gets embarrassed in public, and in private, multiple times, and stands in opposition to, and in fact, gets "killed" by the protagonists.

-- I wish Hackers was my introduction to Halcyon+On+On instead of Mortal Kombat

-- The ending scene feels so tacked on and forced. Probably forced to be there to satisfy a meddling executive.

-- Kate's pranks on Gill use the power of Gills position against him. Dade's pranks are cringy, shaming, and personal. And it is only by copying Kate's tactics and coding a virtual 187 on the motherfucking secret service agent, is awarded a pity tie. Attempting to show dominance, he demands molding Kate to his ideals in exchange for his submission. Kate, sick of his shit by now, decides to push right back and enforce her boundaries by transgressing on his, something Dade has been doing the whole movie. Dade gets trapped in a web of his own normative presentations, unable to back down with out looking "weak" but also unsure if his capabilities would be enough to allow him to prevail and thus preserve his Dadeness, untouched by feminine power.

-- Yelling "Trashing" and "Hack the Planet" while being shoved into an arrestmobile is a great show of using shared ideology combined with an understanding of similar thought processes enough to communicate securely while being monitored. Very, very good encryption.

-- Razer and Blade are adorable together and its sad seeing talented showmen forced to live at the whim of media production companies who are only wanting to cash in on the image and prestige of authenticity and local reputation in pursuit of profit.

Took a stab at it myself. Mostly happy with the rough outline, but the engineer in me wants to turn it into an actual object.

StellarBlade (v1)

Was having a shitty morning. Listened to this track a few times, instantly felt better. Have a nice banger. Helix (Extended) - Justice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7b7yXi1kds

Oh, okay. today is gonna be an unstable emotional core day. Nice to get that figured out early.

Fucking brainmeats. Fucking mis-seasoned brain soup. Thoughts running in silicon substrate now pls?

Now Playing: The Look - Roxette
Up Next:
Saturday Night's Alright for Fighting - Elton John
As Stars Fall - Wolfgun
Starlight Brigade - TWRP

I wish I could be more militant and outraged. I just don't have the energy for it. Sometimes, i worry about being thought of as a traitor or something cause i'm not posting screeds or shouting online, or even worse, not going to protests and rallies and such.

My boss is so damn good, y'all.

My coming out email draft is officially 2 months old. I keep looking at the little (1) next to my drafts folder and that more than anything is making me want to just send the damn thing and be done with it.

Any weapon/mecha artists available that would be willing to work with me on designing the official Huskybot sword?

Tonight, I successfully downloaded, installed, and launched the UE4 Editor! And I added a bunch of free assets to use once I figure out what I'm doing!

Nothing on my schedule tonight. Think I'll start taking my first stabs at getting things setup and poking around inside UE4 tonight.

So, just from a cursory review of options, I think I'm going to switch from Godot to Unreal. There's a bigger library of free assets, and I'm going to need to use as much pre-existing work in order to get to prototype phase quickly. If it turns out I've got something actually worth showing to other people, THEN i can start looking for unique, purpose made assets. until then, its time to do what I usually do: Reuse, remix, repurpose.

I just saw my own custom loading message on a Slack and it buffed me a little bit.

Whenever I have trouble describing the "huskybot" aesthetic, I will now point people toward this video. Amazing model work and exactly what I had in mind for the level of detail and style of detail. I can now say: "Like this, but with a husky head and two chest gems instead of just one."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BkluGReixUU&t=632s

What am I doing here? Why do I get existential exactly when I sit down in the RZ to work? This happens every damn Monday. Crawl off my bus downtown, zombie through the mo(u)rning standup, then grumble through security to sit and stare at a glowing rectangle all damn day.

I want to be trans with confidence. I want to feel like I'm making good moves for myself, instead of throwing my life at the wall to see what sticks. Being told no one else knows what they're doing doesn't help.

Tonight's mission: Get really, really, really fucking stoned. Double or triple taps on the vape-adapted bong at regular intervals. This is gonna be fun!

Its tiring being woke. Wanna curl back up on my recharge pad.