🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

Called mom after work last tnight to let her know I watched the stream. We bantered for a little bit. Got called a wonderful son, again.

And then I asked: "Mom, are you okay with me? I know there's at least one more conversation we need to have, but I'm not ready for it.

and she said "I'm working on it. Take all the time you need."

Hard to read that. Not sure if she's actually struggling or if she's waiting for me to get my thumb out and just have the name/pronoun declaration.

Today is my parents 40th anniversary. They renewed their vows at church, who livestreamed the event, and had a song pre-recorded by my little cousin who actually won a record deal on one of those American-Idol type shows.

Everyone was maintaining social distance, and most people actually watched the stream.

i didn't get to hear everything Mom and Dad said cause they wouldn't talk into the mic and the person running the sound screwed up where I wouldn't have.

But it was still nice to see my parent still getting along, wiping their eyes, and still in love with each other.

I learned how to love from my dad (and a few relationship books I read as a kid trying to improve my odds in getting this wonderful thing I'd heard about called a girlfriend) I don't think I figured it all out, but he never missed noticing a hair cut, never forgot Mother's day or their anniversary; Only missed 1 birthday, and then came up with a completely new day (flowers on the first day of spring) that he never forgot to make up for it, and kept that up too. Gestures and sentiment might not be everything, but after 40 years, I think he's at worst not wrong about them.

I can't imagine what I'll feel about my relationships in 40 years, but I hope I get to experience love and commitment that last that long too.

[IT'S PRETTY COOL BEING THIS BIG. I DON'T GET STUCK IN TRAFFIC.]

[FUCKIT. AXIOS IS DEPLOYED FOR THE SUMMER. I'M THINKING BIG THOUGHTS UNTIL I CHANGE MY MIND.] #SocialistTeeth

#socialistTeeth is something I actually can't participate in.

None of my icons show teeth.

Anyone open for an icon commission?

I just realized that I was a part of costing Uncle Jeff a lot of money, and he can find out my name and where I live.

But I was also a part of costing Uncle Jeff a lot of money, so I should be able to coast into Heaven on that, right?

TL,DR: They blinked and they're gonna pay.

Had a special conference call today. The ops team is now getting a thank you bonus. For being on-site through the pandemic so far, and fighting a labor dispute too, and STILL managing to deliver the same high quality service. To be paid out by the end of the month. So that was nice to hear.

On-call is going away. They are dismantling required after-hours for hourly employees.

Its nice to actually see skip levels responding to employee feedback.

It's not getting left on read...

...It's leaving them speechless.

Taking a long time to get back into a work groove. I spent so much of last week out of the office, I can't get my brain to engage with actually doing my job. Been looking at gun parts all day

Hay my birthday Zoom call with my family yesterday. Wasn't intending to have the coming out/name+ pronoun fight, and I didn't.

The call went well, though I don't know that it had to be on Zoom. Probably could've been an email.

But I got some encouraging text from my cousin and his husband, so that's good.

36 Solar orbits completed. Still waiting for the future I was promised. (Yes, I know I wasn't "promised" one. Not the point). My friends care about me. My plush loves me. My boyfriend loves me too. Could be worse, I guess. Love you all. Thanks for being my friends.

I've only been there a few times, but damn its nice when I get to visit.

The cluster manager who "led" us through the past few months has been banished from the River Tribe.

The Regional manager is stepping in to lead us directly.

During the call today, I got to unload my 2 talking points

-Web Services makes amazon over 50% of their /profit/ and are considered "essential", but not essential enough to be compensated for being forced to accept the risks of working during the pandemic

-Being told frequently by leadership that they don't have a plan, or can't talk about their plans does not build trust.

Back at work after 2 days of being sick. We sent a message that has apparently been heard.

But I'm not holding my breath. Spend the start of yesterday kinda freaked out, thinking that if the RT sees me not being at work and not noticing much change in the numbers, then they might start questioning if they really need me around. That was a un-fun thing to think about. But I have just trained 3 new contractors in a 4 week period, and I got each one mostly ready to go.

So we'll see what happens. Meanwhile, I'm gonna keep doing my best.

So, now apparently all Essential Workers for the River Tribe are going to get actual hazard pay.

But not me. The River Tribe Web services make the tribe more than half of its profit, but we aren't considered worthy of care.

So a bunch of us are gonna just gonna be sick tomorrow.

So, I was supposed to call dad yesterday. The anxiety of waiting got the better of me. So I text him and say "Hey. I know I said i was gonna call you, but I don't know how busy i'm gonna be today. Nothing big, I'm just trans. Been on HRT almost 2 years. Thought you should know" Just so I could deal with the familiar anxiety of waiting for a response rather than dreading having a difficult real-time conversation.

He never responded, but mom texted me, saying that I was courageous and still loved.

Me (texting back): Yay!