fluffetti pupcake @mishi@awoo.space

worst part of cptsd from a lifetime of abuse is there isn't a definitive pre-trauma person i can remember being and want to recover enough to go back to being. i'm just stuck trying to build and rebuild a better house on top of a bad foundation.

listening to random twitch streamers and crossing all of my fingers that they don't turn out to be shit human beings

i can't complain too much, i haven't really had that hard of an ant time since i moved into a 2nd floor apartment. i definitely don't miss getting ants in my kitchen for 4 months out of the year. now i just get random surges of scouts in my bathroom and sometimes the bedrooms.

could do without ants as a thing in general

alternative: hot ass chicken

90 degrees outside? time to get some hot ass soup

sandwhomst'd've

i pretty much refuse to even step foot into a hobby lobby on principle. which sucks because michael's is a hot tub o' garbage with no selection and joann's are few and far between out here.

as a completionist i need to finish all these little baby x-stitch kits i got before i can deck myself out with all the riolis patterns/kits i can get my grubby little hands on at once off amazon

tfw you want to sew but it's 4am and turning the lights on to do it would just Disturb Everyone

@typhlosion '100 yen stores' are a thing there iirc!

@ShowerThoughts a turbotax class would have done me much better in life than the blow off electives i took in 'microsoft frontpage' ever did

best i've got is a copy of gamemakerstudio i got on that humble bundle sale like a year ago

'spiritual successor to the petz series' is basically what i'd make if i had any sort of game dev knowledge tbh

also blessed are those that saw value in making the effort to hold on to old files for, in some cases, 2 decades.

there's a weird sense of internet archaeology in scrounging for .zip files on archive.org'd geocities pages that have last updated notes of 1999.