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ugh

this place is so welcoming and friendly but i sabotaged my ability to be real on @chr@cybre.space by getting too large of a following

so instead i'm going to ramble here on my furry alt

i...should not have started a mastodon instance. i was 100% committed before cybre.space and now i'm way overextended

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negativity 

and now i'm fixating on what i can only conceive to be a defect where i impulsively jump onto any project that seems interesting without giving a thought to my existing commitments

this happens to me on a somewhat regular basis. mastodon is just the latest, and somewhat more intense, iteration

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negativity 

i know how to look at the positive aspects of it and i know why i'm feeling depressed about it (i haven't been getting enough sleep) but despite my best efforts i can't quite catch up to everything and feelings demand to be expressed, so here we are

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neuro

negativity 

i thought mastodon was going to be great because i could abandon the carefully curated persona i developed on birdsite, but then i got 800 followers

doesn't matter how welcoming this place is, my brain flips out at that number and doesn't let me post anything remotely vulnerable or risky

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neuro

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and meanwhile being an instance admin is turning out to be a much bigger thing than i thought it was going to be, and i keep being terrified of screwing up and pissing people off or breaking things

and because i'm not fucking omniscient and have this other overcommitted life i mentioned, i keep worrying i'll miss important things, like

what instances need to be blocked to avoid federating with assholes, what problems are happening on the server that might be my fault,

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negativity 

fuck it whatever i'm entding this rant here because it's not accomplishing anything worthwhile

i'm just pointing out problems i already know about

i already know the solution, i need to hire another moderator and step back from cybrespace for a while and go to bed before 2am for fucking once

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this has happened before and it will happen again

my only solace is that furry art makes me feel warm inside for a little bit awoo.space/media/tA_wogPmWxJ9-

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and obligatory s/o to my incredible boyfriend who thinks my obsession with mastodon is cute and with whom i will get to cuddle indefinitely come fall

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