four more hours til i see my parents in court possibly 😬

damn it just hit me

how scary it'll be

if they just start yelling in the courtroom

i mean it'd be good, it'd strengthen my case and make them look really really bad

but like, it'd still be hard to handle lol

i'm not putting ANYTHING past them at this point

anything at all

they've shown there's no low they won't sink to to get what they want

it's gonna suck

having to relive all the trauma

to tell the judge about it

that's what i'm really afraid of

is just

those moments where i'm explaining what happened

because usually i try to ignore it and not think about it

i have to stay level-headed and not start panicking or crying or something

i bet they're gonna try starting shit with us directly outside the courthouse too after it's all done lol

they did that when they had to go to court with their landlord, and when they told me about it they made it clear they were the aggressors

something someone said

that's really gonna help

is that i'm not there to talk TO my parents

i'm there to talk to the judge

my parents are there to talk to the judge

we won't be talking to each other

i have to ignore them and pretend there's a wall between us, even if they try egging me on