dissociation stuff, sensory overload
@zinnia I would not wish to assume; but from reading the part on the "noisy spaces -> dissociation attack" pattern (saaame), it may or may not bear fruit to look into Autistic Spectrum related stuff.
I wouldn't wanna armchair dx, and hope this doesn't come across that way! I just experience this pattern a lot, and dissociate frequently in response to sensory overload. ._.