i have pain aversion to the point if it being counterproductove to my overall health. conflict avoidance. it places strain on my relationships because i often cannot have difficult conversations . i can do it with close friends but not anyone else. it feels "safe" to do so with them but if i dont implicitly trust someone i cant. it makes sense because i am conditioned to expect people to be unreasonable to me but my interpersonal skills still objectively suck