suicide rape
man everyone sucks and i dont. understand. i didnt live through all that so i could live in daily fear of people being fucking demons. im blowing it out of proportion but it feels like everyone has a fucking rape fetish and genuinely nothing makes me want to die more i dobt feel safe i feel fucking disgusting for being someones fetish
suicide rape
@pinkplasticwineglass it just feels like i dont matter at all and that im a hysterical survivor whos making unreasonable demands of other people and i feel disgusting and unstable and subhuman and idiotic. worse than i was last year.
suicide rape
@pinkplasticwineglass i feel like im overreacting all the time and being a huge idiot for thinking that maybe its a bad idea to fetishize rape and i feel dehumanized so much. and like i dont and cant matter at all to anyone. it would help if i engaged with fandom culture less and i do im less involved than ive been in my entire life but i just want to ENJOY THINGS