diet dr. nasty @pinkplasticwineglass@awoo.space
i have stupid bitch disorder
this is basically a vent account, i try to set my posts as followers only so if shit somehow shows up in your feed my apologies
Joined Jun 2017
im stressed about dumb shit all the time how about i... Die
suicidal ideation
can i getg an uhhh mc bullet to the skull
parent / leaving
my main concern is that like i'll leave and be super financially unstable or unhappy in some way. but i think even if that happens neither are "proof" that i should have tried to tolerate being suffocated through college and getting a masters. because living with them controlling most aspects of my life is hurting me
parent
it feels like all of the burden is on me to try and repair our relationship even though they're the ones that ruined it. and if i try to leave they're going to reassert that. i think it's about working myself up to be confident enough that i'm doing whats best for me
parent
i do for real need to not be here but it feels like giving up to say that. but i don't actually need them to reach my life goals of "living with some friends" "having some rats" "going to anthrocon" "being a librarian"
parent / suicide
i mean what's new i feel fucking sick about this all the time. im ready to go back to school now lol. it was making me suicidal last semester but i'm hoping some new time management techniques + my increased dose will help
parent
@dragon like you're.. right in that they want me to process for them. one is frustrated because i won't Tell Her Things but treats anything i say about myself as too ridiculous or confusing to respect. none of this is very hard to conceptualize at all but they're............................. entitled
parent
@dragon yeah. they keep bringing up stuff that they've done as like, proof that they're fine actually. a lot of it's stuff that i straight up did not ask them to do, like my mom went to a counselor to try and "work through it" and the therapy we are doing right now was also completely their idea. (supposedly it was to "help me process" but it's mostly the therapist mediating) me being trans places stress on them, yadda yadda
trans
head hurtie
parent
i dont want it to be like. ok great job making our relationship ok again :) now that you're done being a whiny idiot brat :) im gonna die
parent
maybe somehow i can kind of mend my relationship with my parents but i also don't want to because. it'll fucking all be me. my mother currently refuses to apologize for being a giant baby about me being transgender which like. is easy as hell. it's easy as hell to just say "nice my son i'll support you when you come out to other members of our family and people at school"
no facial ridges to poke at while sitting around
dragonkin is trying to stim with your tail or wing tip but you dont have those. or you cant tap a claw off of a hard surface, Nail Too Short. Door Stuck
@hungeeboy sorry if this is like really overbearing i just wanted to make sure you heard this from someone
@hungeeboy i think that youre fine. you are normal about stuff that isnt fucked up. people make out criticism to be unreasonable to try and defang their detractors but it doesnt mean that youre suddenly off base or being insufferable
WHHWG
YOU KNOW WHEN YOU ARE GAY!!!
parent
like yeah i'll do that and then i'll never hear the end of her complaining and telling me that i'm wrong and being unfair. like she reacts that way at even the TINIEST stuff, i can't tell her that basically every parenting decision she ever made was fucked up and now i have ptsd. i mean i can do that but not while i'm still fucking dependent on her
parent
my mom is like digging at me to "talk to her about what's wrong" but she's done absolutely nothing to inspire confidence in me that she'll actually give a shit about anything i have to say
i have stupid bitch disorder
this is basically a vent account, i try to set my posts as followers only so if shit somehow shows up in your feed my apologies
Joined Jun 2017
