diet dr. nasty @pinkplasticwineglass@awoo.space

at first when absorbing undertale's plot i literally didnt understand that mettaton wasnt an ai. i just thought he was like that

@asmalldragon@mastodon.social OH the gulp part was confusing me. youre chugging. i get it

mood? https://awoo.space/media/hL8D4zTwatDUoQ_g96g

@asmalldragon@mastodon.social explain

for months id have horrifying abdominal pain with no correlation with menstruation/eating habits

who stole my dick

my digestive system is hell but at leas ti can shit without wheezing in pain now

however i do have like really bad emotional impermenance. everyone i know has told me multiple times without prompting from me that they really like me and think im a great psn. but im still here right now like. me..... have friends? everyone just thinks i'm a weird toy? the? way if we pee out butts?

i dont really think i have bpd, i used to think this but a lot of it disappeared when i accepted being multiple. sometimes youre 7 people at once

generally im like.. euuuggh. ew. when i think about myself. like i am pathetic and sad to the point of being nauseating. contour my personality

@brucewayne idk how far u have read in the manga but he hasn't died so far and i'm mostly caught up

@brucewayne he cant die

i think the term i was looking for earlier was waifish. it was also very much performing being a Child, But She Fucks for adults which was extremely bad

most friends i have made in the past years happened because another close friend introduced them to me. i am extremely shy and suspicious actually

i think that i will feel better about my own desirability after i do some hormoning. but i need to understand that sometimes people i am not already familiar with will like me without ulterior motives

i know what i want better now but there are lots of frightening people who appear normal

the fact that i was ever "there" was really horrifying to me and i still feel like a worthless freak for "letting" people use me and being a sexual degenerate at 13

ive erased like all archives of this so i dont think theres any direct evidence of this anyone besides kitlin has ever actually seen.

the only way i got any kind of positive attention at 13/14 was by acting out the role of. i dont know how to describe this. um. some kind of Dont Hurt Me Please useable dubcon fantasy

especially not cis gay men. i probably need to make more trans friends irl. like being a gay guy has felt like a great thing for me but i also feel like kind of a pathetic imitator